Sunday, May 8, 2022

The Resurrection Journey: Sermon for Easter 4C


Here we are with spring getting ready to burst in on us—burst in, and go blasting right by as 90 degree temperatures are predicted in just a few days’ time. How appropriate then, that our gospel plunges us back into winter. Because in our reading today, from the middle of Jesus’s ministry, it was winter—the time of the season of Hanukkah, because that is what the Festival of the Dedication is—and Jesus is walking the Portico of Solomon at the Temple, trailed by some of those opponents who constantly love to ask him leading questions trying to trip him up.

At the beginning of this chapter of John's gospel, Jesus had just finished referring to himself as “the good shepherd” to the people, and being very specific about that, as well. Yet here are these supposedly learned leaders of the people claiming they need more specifics, more proof.

It’s funny that in their maneuvering to try to trip up Jesus, they give voice to THE central issue for all of us: we all would like to just have the answers handed to us. We’d all love to have God solve all our problems and protect us all from every misfortune like a genie giving us unlimited wishes. Those leaders want to have Jesus as their Messiah for what he can do for them, rather than for what that would inspire them to change in their lives. They don’t want to have to listen, study, learn, or change. They want the answers handed to them.

And even now, that’s the problem with the life of faith, isn’t it? Here we are in Easter, when everything is supposed to be glorious summer, but instead, in all honesty, we find ourselves mired in the winter of our discontent, in the troubles and gnawing doubts and anxieties that subsume so much of our lives right now. War and crimes against humanity in Europe. Injustices in our legal system. Loved ones ill and plunged into rounds of treatment. A new variant of COVID getting ready to wash over us. Our schools becoming battlegrounds and under siege by ignorance. Leaders who seize power by dividing rather than uniting, by grandstanding rather than doing the boring work of governing for the good of all. Is it any wonder that even our lectionary acknowledges the difficulty in believing in resurrection when there is so much struggle, strife and grievance flavoring our every waking moment?

Our readings the last few weeks have been filled with stories of struggles with belief in resurrection. The male apostles accuse the women at the tomb of idle gossip on Easter morning. Thomas demands to actually see and touch the wounds of Jesus to know he’s not a ghost. Peter is haunted by his denial of Jesus and subsequent loss of faith in himself. Have you notices this? Our Easter readings are frank acknowledgements of exactly the same struggles we encounter as we try to grasp the idea of resurrection as a reality when everything around us draws our attention to earthly troubles and divisions.

The life of faith is always under assault by the forces of contempt and denial. So it’s no wonder that Jesus, in our gospel reading today, cannot even conceal his impatience with the games his opponents keep trying to play. They are asking him questions not because they want the real answer—in fact, the real answer is a threat to their system of domination. That’s why they’ve refused to see the signs all over the place. And Jesus tells them just that.

Jesus returns to the image of the shepherd in his response to the haters. And you and I might miss out on how that in itself is a criticism and an accusation against his opponents.

Because the thing is, THEY are supposed to be the shepherds of the people. In the ancient Mediterranean world, a common metaphor for leadership was the shepherd. Even the symbols of the power of the Pharaoh of Egypt was the local equivalent of the rod and the staff we heard about in our psalm. In the Torah and writings of Israel, God was the ultimate shepherd, and kings and leaders were supposed to mimic that loving care and concern. Leaders were supposed to be self-sacrificing shepherds at one with the people, and repeatedly in the prophets such as Ezekiel and in the psalms like the beloved one we just heard, that model of loving solidarity and protection was the requirement for leadership. And just like an ancient prophet, Jesus has been pointing out that those leaders have been woefully inadequate in the shepherd department. Instead of shepherds, they’ve been jackals, picking off the weak and collaborating with the wolves of Rome.

So when Jesus brings up being a shepherd again in our gospel, he intended for his opponents to immediately remember the description from our psalm, which is not only a psalm of praise to God—it is also a manual for how to inspire others and courageously lead them by caring about them. And they don’t like it, because they know their leadership is not built on the model of self-sacrifice and complete trustworthiness, but on the model of exploitation and manipulation.

This is very much the situation in which we too live, thousands of years later. As that 20th century sage Prince Rogers Nelson famously introduced in one of his songs in the glorious decade of the 1980s, “Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to get through this thing called life; an electric word, life—it means forever and that’s a mighty long time….” (1)

Unlike that Prince, who advised us all to party like it was 1999, Jesus, the Prince of Peace, calls us to live like eternity matters. Jesus calls us to embrace the resurrected life as the ultimate pathway for a life that is filled with richness, direction, and value. To embrace life not just as a series of unfortunate events and struggles, but as an offering of thanksgiving and praise to God that in return fills us with confidence and joy no matter what obstacles we encounter.

Because the point of the life of faith is not merely to escape damnation and pronounce ourselves blessed: it’s to transform our living so that we live in imitation of Christ, that we truly dedicate ourselves to becoming his Body—his hands, heart, wisdom, and love—out in a world that is crying out for those things. It’s to offer those things to those around us because we acknowledge that we ourselves have received them from God, and they have transformed us from a people of fear to a people of hope.

So where are the instructions? How do we do this? The 23rd Psalm, the most beloved of all psalms, with images and verses known even to people with very little religious background, provides us with a sort of instruction manual as we embody the Shepherd's way of Resurrection.

The psalmist only knows the way to go because God, his own shepherd, is leading him. In the Mediterranean world, shepherds walked in front, and the sheep followed, unlike cattle that one drives with whips from the rear. Because the shepherd leads the sheep confidently, purposefully, the sheep know that all of their needs are going to be cared for. The shepherd, in a land that was persistently drought-stricken, knows the way to lush green fields that provide both plenteous forage along the way, but also is a sign that there is cool, sweet water nearby—another important consideration, as brackish or foul water could cause illness or even death. The shepherd’s leadership inspires faith and confidence and security in response to the anxiety we all encounter along the way.

In the anxiety of this journey, the soul can be wearied, bowed down, overcome by worry, anxiety, and stress. The shepherd knows this and counteracts it—by being right there with the sheep, by speaking tenderly to them, even by playing music or singing to them, so that even in the midst of the herd, each sheep can hear the comforting presence of the voice of the one who cares for them. In fact, the care and certainty with which the shepherd guides, leads, and cares for the sheep are such that the shepherd’s name becomes a watchword and symbol of faithful care and compassion. Such glorification of his name and his renown for his faithful care will even draw other sheep to seek out that shepherd themselves, just as God’s care of Israel was such that Isaiah spoke of the Temple becoming a house of prayer for all nations, and Paul carried the good news of the gospel out into the Gentile world. As we ourselves are called to be disciples not just inside these walls, but beyond these doors.

The shepherd responds to risks and dangers along the way, rather than making the empty promise that trials and dangers can be avoided. The shepherd does not promise that there will be no times of anxiety—but the sureness of his leadership means that even when the shadows are the deepest and the feeling of vulnerability and impending disaster seem greatest, the sheep fear no evil. The shepherd is in the front, with his rod, used to beat back predators, and his staff, used to guide the sheep and remove scorpions and snakes from the pathway are ever interposed between the sheep and any threats they may encounter. Even in the bleakest of environments, with dangers howling all around, the shepherd takes the lead and protects.

As shepherd and flock reach each resting place for the night, the shepherd makes sure that food aplenty is offered to all of his charges. This comforting domestic scene is enacted even with the wolves howling right outside the firelight of the crackling campfire. The sheep aren’t about to go hungry in the face of danger—on the contrary, that’s when the shepherd makes sure that the sheep aren’t just relieved of their anxiety, but treated to a sumptuous feast that shows a confidence and devotion that also makes a mockery of the predators’ attempts to panic the flock. The shepherd anoints and attends to all wounds with tenderness, making each sheep feel special and beloved.

And so, each day of the journey is veined with the surety of the shepherd’s devotion to the sheep, until at last they draw near to the home of the shepherd. Upon arrival at the shepherd’s home, the sheep still know that that same goodness and mercy that they experienced on the road will be their forever. Once there, the sheep realize that all that has followed and pursued them was not danger and heartbreak, but the goodness and mercy of the shepherd—the intrinsic and foundational qualities of God.

How is this journey possible? They key is in the very first verse: Notice that the opening metaphor in verse 1 contains a positive and a negative statement: “God is my shepherd” is positive; “Therefore I lack nothing” considers that there can be no need greater than the care and concern of God.” Perhaps that is why this psalm is so beloved. We have a tendency to focus on what we lack. Our lizard, instinctive levels of our brains are constantly on alert, perceiving threats everywhere. But if we take seriously the care and complete faithfulness of God toward us, we know that nothing can harm us.

That doesn’t mean we won’t encounter tragedy, or suffering, or illness, or even death. It means that God will be alongside us throughout those things. Never leaving us along to face them. And it means that God calls us into community to support each other and reach out to the lost as the most beautiful expression and use of this one precious life we have been given.

Today, especially, we remember and proclaim that Jesus is our good shepherd, walking alongside us and protecting us, laughing with us, mourning with us. Calling us all to live a resurrected life of hope, of faith, of generosity. To plant seeds of compassion, love and gratitude in the rocky soil of human systems of division and fear.

The resurrected life calls us to grow from being sheep to being shepherds ourselves, in joyful testimony and gratitude for the gifts that God has given us each and every moment. The resurrected life calls us to BE the change we want to see in the world. And the time to begin is now.

Amen.


Preached at the 8 and 10:30 am Eucharists at St. Martin's Episcopal Church in Ellisville, MO, on May 8, 2022.

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1) Prince Rogers Nelson, "Let's Go Crazy,"from the album and film Purple Rain, 1984.






Thursday, May 5, 2022

God, My Shepherd: Speaking to the Soul May 5, 2022




The Holy One is my Shepherd;
there is nothing else I need or lack.
In verdant fields God urges my rest,
by clear, sweet waters God leads me.
You refresh and revive my soul,
and are my guide to holy pathways
that I may glorify Your NAME in each step.
Even if evil and death overshadow me
and the walls of the deepest valley tower over me,
no fear of evil shall overtake me;
for You are my companion alongside me always;
Your rod and staff are ever between me and danger,
and I am comforted and at peace.
In the face of those who seek my harm
You prepare a feast;
You have marked me as holy and beloved,
and have filled my cup to overflowing.
The sureness of Your goodness and mercy
is the foundation and lodestar of my life,
and my home is with You in each moment,
and eternally.


Image: The Good Shepherd, by Laura James

This was first published at Episcopal Journal and Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on May 5, 2022.

Sunday, May 1, 2022

Breakfast at the Resurrection: Sermon for Easter 3C



Simon Peter’s head was swirling with thoughts, and his heart was churning with emotion. He felt the weight of guilt pressing down on him since the last time he has seen his Lord, on the night of his betrayal. He needed to get away. So he decided to say he was going fishing overnight—and of course, half of the other apostles immediately jumped in, demanding to come too.

It was torture. All he wanted was to be left alone with his failures—but instead he spent all night listening to the chatter of his fellow-apostles, who didn’t seem to notice he wasn’t his usual, impulsive self.

All he could think of was the red glow of that coal fire, and the reflection of that glow in the faces all around him as he had denied again and again that he knew Jesus. And then the rooster had crowed, and his heart had sunk like a stone, and he had run away.

He would never forgive himself.

Jesus had made a terrible mistake in claiming that he, Simon Peter, could be the head of the group, the leader of the apostles. He couldn’t continue Jesus’s work in proclaiming the good news of Jesus! He couldn’t even stand up for what he believed standing on a side street with a bunch of strangers.

Dawn came and, on top of having to endure PEOPLE all night long in that little boat, they hadn’t caught a damn’ thing. It was hot, and it was still, and the beer had run out a long time ago. It was the perfect combination of conditions for someone determined to be miserable, and it almost gave Simon Peter a grim, black sense of satisfaction.

Then, just about dawn, some guy on the shore had started calling out advice—and if there’s one thing a fisherman can’t stand, it’s some yahoo giving advice from the comfort of shore. “Cast your net on the right side,” the stranger had called. Oh, sure, THAT must be the problem.

But they hauled the nets up, sorted and rolled them, and then cast them on the right side of the boat. For a moment, the nets just sunk out of view into the gloom. And then, when they started to haul it up, the resistance caused the boat suddenly to tilt to one side. As soon as they had shifted their weight to right it, John had yelled out that the guy on shore was Jesus. He sounded so sure that Simon Peter squinted hard at the stranger—and he recognized the slope of those shoulders.

Simon Peter’s heart leapt to his throat, and he did the only thing he could think of—he made himself presentable and jumped over the side. It seemed like it took just seconds to reach the shore. Dripping, he took the hand Jesus offered as he flopped through the rushes, but then dropped it like it was hot. He saw that coal fire, burning merrily, and remembered.

He had no right to expect anything other than condemnation. He had denied his Savior three times to save his own neck, and he deserved nothing more than to be cast out.

Instead, he got breakfast. Breakfast, and forgiveness. There between the white-hot memory of two fires, and three denials.

On that ordinary day, Jesus makes sure the spiritual wounds of Peter are tended to, and placed on the way to healing.

One of the things that is most striking is the ordinariness surrounding Jesus’s encounters with his followers after his resurrection in the gospel of John.

Jesus appears so ordinary that no one recognizes him at first. Mary Magdalene thinks he’s the gardener just outside his empty tomb. The other apostles have to see the wounds on his body to recognize him—and some even demand it as we heard last week. And now, here he just shows up on the shore of the Sea of Tiberias, another name for the Sea of Galilee and starts yelling out fishing advice.

And, once again, it is in a simple meal that Jesus communicates so much. Jesus himself has provided the fire, some fish, and the bread—and invites them to contribute too, just as we do to this day in the Eucharist. As the apostles struggle to get the boat to shore dragging their bulging net, some of them remember that time along that same shore that Jesus had fed a multitude with just a few fish and a couple of simple loaves of bread.

So often, we expect to see Jesus surrounded by the miraculous. That expectation fools us, though, and makes us forget this most important fact that Jesus himself alluded to time and again in his teaching: Jesus is almost always found where we least expect him, because he is most present to us as one of us. The stranger offering us advice we don’t want to hear. The hungry elderly man choosing food over medical care. The homeless person seeking shelter and community who feels she’s been cast away by anyone she has ever loved. The refugees fleeing the only home they’ve ever wanted for the probably unfriendly shores of a foreign land where they may never be accepted.

It is in the ordinary that the true miracle of Christ’s love plays itself out for us in each moment, whether of joy or sorrow. We too often live between the fires of our past failures and our current temptation to take the easy way still. Yet we have all been called, like Peter, to proclaim our discipleship—and all of us have had times where we have failed. But not a word of blame is spoken by Jesus to Simon Peter, or to us. Just a simple question: Do you love me? And then Jesus feeds us, body and soul.

Each time Jesus asks, one of Simon Peter’s three denials is blotted out. “Do you love me?” Jesus asks again and again, even though he already knows the answer.

And many of us are bearing burdens of guilt and shame. Many of us, like Peter, allow our failures to haunt us. Sometimes, the hardest person to forgive is yourself. Sometimes, it’s so overwhelming that we go the other way-- we even deny we have done anything wrong, we refuse to acknowledge how we have taken others and our relationships for granted, in order to avoid admitting we have anything for which we need forgiveness. But, unless we are narcissists, we know better. And it eats inside us.


Jesus doesn’t come to Peter there on the shore of the Sea of Tiberias and demand that Peter beg for forgiveness. Instead, Jesus offers him breakfast. Breakfast, and the reassurance that Peter is still beloved, that Jesus still believes in him enough to turn over the care and feeding of his followers to Peter.

And here we are. Two thousand years later, and Jesus calls to us from the shore too, telling us to have faith and put down our nets, just as the rest of society claims that we are in a hopelessly secular time. We stay silent with the good news of Christ—and allow others to seize the microphone, claiming that God is all about retribution and fear and might making right. Our silence can be deadly.

In our gospel, those nets have been empty all night—and they remind me of the way many of us feel, on a personal level, that our nets are empty after these last years of stress and worry. How many times have we put our nets down in the last few years, and hauled them up empty, and had to persevere anyway? The dashed hopes, the lack of an obvious end point has been mentally, spiritually, and physically exhausting.

And that experience of the empty nets can apply to our religious life as well. We may feel that our nets are empty spiritually. And for those of us who pay attention to such matters, the decline of the role of faith in so many people’s lives is also a cause for worry. I think of the continued tales of gloom and doom that many proclaim as the number of people who profess faith in God and who attend religious services continues to shrink in North America and in Europe. Empty nets, empty pews.

Yet—a time of empty nets is also a time of opportunity, as Jesus reminds us. If our nets are empty, perhaps it’s because we are putting them down in the wrong place both for ourselves and in our spiritual lives. The fact is that there are plenty of fish there. Among those who think that Christianity is all about power and might and judging others. Among those who have been hurt by the Church’s tendency toward being an institution rather than a way of life devoted to serving God and each other, and in doing so, finding ourselves. Sometimes, even when we feel the most bereft, we realize that we have drifted away. God hasn’t. God is always there, calling to us from the shore. Urging us to remember whose we are. And urging us to cast down our nets that all can know the warmth of God’s love for them—love we all so desperately need.

We cast down our nets for ourselves and for others, not by fear or threats of a wrathful God, but through the lives WE live as people of resurrection, as people of hope, out in a world that is STARVED for that message. We speak up over the din of division, self-centeredness, and hatred, and let the love and light of Jesus shine out of us by the life Jesus offers us—and offers all—there on the shores of the sea. Jesus offers love, compassion, forgiveness, and nourishment. 

That scene is a reminder to all of us to put our nets down where the need is the greatest. And be willing to joyfully take part in the work of discipleship-- the reason why we're here in the first place, really. We're reminded of that at the end of our gospel, because the reading ends with two simple words: “Follow me.” Simple, but not easy, as Peter and the apostles and as you and me all know.

“Do you love me?” Jesus asks us right now. Yes? Then let down your nets, and gather all you can. Draw the world to Jesus in your words and actions, and in your love most of all. Don’t worry about being overwhelmed, or about the net breaking. The net of faith is strong enough to hold everyone. Don’t worry about your own failures and shortcomings and doubts—know that you are beloved of Jesus, beloved, and worthy, and called to living a resurrected life. 

Preached at the 505 on April 30, and at the 8:00 and 10:30 am Eucharists on May 1, 2022 at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville.

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Thursday, April 28, 2022

Between Two Fires: Speaking to the Soul for April 28, 2022



John 21:1-19

 

Simon Peter’s head was swirling with thoughts, and his heart was churning with emotion. He needed to get away. So he decided to say he was going fishing overnight—and of course, half of the other apostles immediately jumped in, demanding to come too.

It was torture. All he wanted was to be left alone with his failures—but instead he spent all night listening to the chatter of his fellow-apostles, who didn’t seem to notice he wasn’t his usual, impulsive self.

All he could think of was the red glow of that coal fire, and the reflection of that glow in the faces all around him as he had denied again and again that he knew Jesus. And then the rooster had crowed, and his heart had sunk like a stone, and he had run away.

He would never forgive himself.

Jesus had made a terrible mistake in claiming that he, Simon Peter, could be the head of the group, the leader of the apostles. He couldn’t continue Jesus’s work in proclaiming the good news of Jesus! He couldn’t even stand up for what he believed standing on a side street with a bunch of strangers.

Dawn came and, on top of having to endure PEOPLE all night long in that little boat, they hadn’t caught a damn’ thing. It was hot, and it was still, and the beer had run out a long time ago. It was the perfect combination of conditions for someone determined to be miserable, and it almost gave Simon Peter a grim, black sense of satisfaction.

Then, just about dawn, some guy on the shore had started calling out advice—and if there’s one thing a fisherman can’t stand, it’s some yahoo giving advice from the comfort of shore. “Cast your net on the right side,” the stranger had called. Oh, sure, THAT must be the problem.

But they hauled the nets up, sorted and rolled them, and then cast them on the right side of the boat. For a moment, the nets just sunk out of view into the gloom. And then, when they started to haul it up, the resistance caused the boat suddenly to tilt to one side. As soon as they had shifted their weight to right it, John had yelled out that the guy on shore was Jesus. He sounded so sure that Simon Peter squinted hard at the stranger—and he recognized the slope of those shoulders.

Simon Peter’s heart leapt to his throat, and he did the only thing he could think of—he made himself presentable and jumped over the side. It seemed like it took just seconds to reach the shore. Dripping, he took the hand Jesus offered as he flopped through the rushes, but then dropped it like it was hot. He saw that coal fire, burning merrily, and remembered.

He had no right to expect anything other than condemnation. He had denied his Savior three times to save his own neck, and he deserved nothing more than to be cast out.

Instead, he got breakfast. Breakfast, and forgiveness. There between the white-hot memory of two fires, and three denials.

It is in the ordinary that the true miracle of Christ’s love plays itself out for us in each moment, whether of joy or sorrow. We too often live between the fires of our past failures and our current temptation to take the easy way still. Yet we have all been called, like Peter, to proclaim our discipleship—and all of us have had times where we have failed. But not a word of blame is spoken by Jesus to Simon Peter, or to us. Just a simple question: Do you love me? And then he feeds us, body and soul.

Each time Jesus asks, one of Simon Peter’s three denials is blotted out. “Do you love me?” Jesus asks again and again, even though he already knows the answer.

“Do you love me?” Jesus asks us right now. Yes? Then let down your nets, and gather all you can. Draw the world to Jesus in your words and actions, and in your love most of all. Don’t worry about being overwhelmed, or about the net breaking. The net of faith is strong enough to hold everyone. Don’t worry about your own failures and shortcomings and doubts—know that you are beloved of Jesus, beloved, and worthy, and called.

“Do you love me?” Jesus asks us right now. Yes? Then let down your nets, and gather all you can. Draw the world to Jesus in your words and actions, and in your love most of all. Don’t worry about being overwhelmed, or about the net breaking. The net of faith is strong enough to hold everyone. Don’t worry about your own failures and shortcomings and doubts—know that you are beloved of Jesus, beloved, and worthy, and called.



This was first published at Episcopal Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 28, 2022.

Between Two Fires: Speaking to the Soul, April 28, 2022



Simon Peter’s head was swirling with thoughts, and his heart was churning with emotion. He needed to get away, so he decided to say he was going fishing overnight. Of course, half of the other apostles immediately demanded to join him.

It was torture. All Peter wanted was to be left alone with his failures. Instead he spent all night listening to the chatter of his fellow-apostles, who didn’t seem to notice he wasn’t his usual, impulsive self.

All he could think of was the red glow of that coal fire, and the reflection of that glow in the faces all around him as he had denied again and again that he knew Jesus. And then the rooster had crowed, and his heart had sunk like a stone, and he had run away.

He would never forgive himself.

Jesus had made a terrible mistake in claiming that he, Simon Peter, could be the head of the group, the leader of the apostles. He couldn’t continue Jesus’s work in proclaiming the good news of Jesus! He couldn’t even stand up for what he believed standing on a side street with a bunch of strangers.

Dawn came and, on top of having to endure PEOPLE all night long in that little boat, they hadn’t caught a damn’ thing. It was hot, and it was still, and the beer had run out a long time ago. It was the perfect combination of conditions for someone determined to be miserable, and it almost gave Simon Peter a grim, black sense of satisfaction.

Then, just about dawn, some guy on the shore had started calling out advice—and if there’s one thing a fisherman can’t stand, it’s some yahoo giving advice from the comfort of shore. “Cast your net on the right side,” the stranger had called. Oh, sure, THAT must be the problem.

But they hauled the nets up, sorted and rolled them, and then cast them on the right side of the boat. For a moment, the nets just sunk out of view into the gloom. And then, when they started to haul it up, the resistance caused the boat suddenly to tilt to one side. As soon as they had shifted their weight to right it, John had yelled out that the guy on shore was Jesus. He sounded so sure that Simon Peter squinted hard at the stranger—and he recognized the slope of those shoulders.

Simon Peter’s heart leapt to his throat, and he did the only thing he could think of—he made himself presentable and jumped over the side. It seemed like it took just seconds to reach the shore. Dripping, he took the hand Jesus offered as he flopped through the rushes, but then dropped it like it was hot. He saw that coal fire burning merrily, and remembered.

He had no right to expect anything other than condemnation. He had denied his Savior three times to save his own neck, and he deserved nothing more than to be cast out.

Instead, he got breakfast. Breakfast, and forgiveness. There between the white-hot memory of two fires, and three denials.

It is in the ordinary that the true miracle of Christ’s love plays itself out for us in each moment, whether of joy or sorrow. We too often live between the fires of our past failures and our current temptation to take the easy way still. Yet we have all been called, like Peter, to proclaim our discipleship—and all of us have had times where we have failed. But not a word of blame is spoken by Jesus to Simon Peter, or to us. Just a simple question: Do you love me? And then he feeds us, body and soul.

Each time Jesus asks, one of Simon Peter’s three denials is blotted out. “Do you love me?” Jesus asks, and he already knows the answer.

“Do you love me?” Jesus asks us right now. Then let down your nets, and gather all you can. Draw the world to Jesus in your words and actions, and in your love most of all. Don’t worry about being overwhelmed, or about the net breaking. The net of faith is strong enough to hold everyone. Don’t worry about your own failures and shortcomings and doubts—know that you are beloved of Jesus, beloved, and worthy, and called.


This was first published at Episcopal Journal and Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 28, 2022.

Sunday, April 24, 2022

Wounds, Doubts, and Resurrection: Sermon for Easter 2C



Welcome to our yearly visit with Honest Thomas—the disciple who asks what everyone else is wondering.

You might notice that I do not refer to him as “Doubting Thomas.”

That’s because it is pretty unfair to stick that label on him and not on the other ten remaining apostles. They ALL doubted. And who can blame them? That’s a completely human reaction to have.

Throughout the centuries there has been a hatchet job done on the whole concept of “doubt.” I have heard church people refer to doubt as “the lack of faith.” If you have doubts, they piously intone, you have “lost your faith.”

Not so.

The opposite of faith is not doubt. Doubt demonstrates that you are engaging with the questions before you, seriously. The opposite of faith is disengagement—in not wrestling with the questions, and their impact on our lives, at all. The opposite of faith is not caring, giving up. The life of faith is an active life—it doesn’t take place between your ears, but under your ribs. Faith is not an intellectual proposition to be proved or disproved based on evidence, but a conversion of heart and spirit toward a life seeking after the holy, the good, and the compassionate.

Instead, what I am drawn to thinking about this year as we hear this gospel is the idea of Jesus’s wounds. Not in a creepy way. But as signs of Christ’s solidarity with us.

Too often, wounds and scars are seen as imperfections, something to hide or be ashamed of. They are sometimes used to identify you—and even sometimes make you simply a collection of your wounds and scars, as if that is all there is to any person.

Have you ever noticed that when the authorities are looking for a missing person, they include information about their noticeable scars? Our scars are like our fingerprints—each unique.

Harrison Ford’s got a famous scar on his chin from a car accident, and he gave Sean Bean a scar on his forehead when filming Patriot Games. Harry Potter has his famous lightning-bolt shaped scar on his forehead, and Professor Dumbledore claims to have a scar on his knee that is a perfect map of the London Underground. The evil prince who usurps the throne in The Lion King is actually named Scar. Our beautiful Earth even bears wounds and scars, many inflicted by human activity. As we celebrated Earth Day this last week, I hope that many of us thought of those wounds, and what we could do, each of us, to bring them to healing and recovery.

I thought of the painting by Caravaggio of Jesus inviting what the artist called an “incredulous” Thomas to actually touch those wounds (see the cover image above). Heck, Jesus doesn’t just invite—he takes Thomas’s wrist and drawn him toward his side. Jesus shows Thomas his scars to help prove it’s really him when Thomas, like the rest of the apostles, has a hard time believing that Jesus has been resurrected from the dead. Jesus’s wounds tell the story of love triumphing over death and evil and cruelty.

Our wounds and our scars also each tell a story. When I look at the scars on my body, I remember how I got each of them. There’s a long straight scar on my left leg where it meets my foot—I got that when I was 18, sitting cross-legged on the floor trying to open a hard plastic package with a new doorknob in it. I broke every rule about knife safety I had been taught and turned the blade toward me as I tried to cut open the clamshell packaging. I didn’t feel so good about it either—or the fact that my dad actually almost passed out when he saw the minimal amount of blood as I asked him to take me to the ER. That scar also memorializes the day I learned my dad was afraid of the sight of blood—one of his wounds I could not see.

Then there are scars that are invisible—internal, emotional scars. The ones we bear from heartbreak, or trauma, or abuse, or neglect—and the ones we frequently overlook in others in our rush to judge them. Those scars also tell a story of survival and resilience. Many of us have some new ones after the last few years.

And these internal scars, once we seek help and healing for them, once we accept that they are part of what makes us who we are but not the totality of who we are, are also an opportunity for us to develop empathy and choose a different path, so that we do not, in turn, inflict new scars like ours on others. Thanks to the love of Jesus in the tender hearts of others who have loved me and ministered to me, those kind of scars in my life I have eventually learned to treasure as precious reminders that I have choice, and agency, to break the cycles of pain and suffering that caused others to wound me and scar me. They remind me that I have survived, and that I am more than just my wounds and my scars. They remind me that there is always hope for healing.

Some people are ashamed of their wounds and scars. Our society puts too much emphasis on the idea of perfection being related to looking like you’ve never experienced the touch of pain or aging or just plain old living. That’s not healthy. But scars can also be noble. They are markers of endurance. We can also look at scars as signs of our survival and healing. They are signs of resilience.

As I preached last Sunday on Easter Day, we are being called to live a resurrected life. But even in that resurrected life, we too still bear the wounds and scars of our lives. Jesus’s scars are reminders to all of us that in undergoing death of a cross, Jesus takes the human experience of pain, suffering, and death into the very essence of the Triune God. God truly understands our pains and our traumas—including those we have undergone unjustly, just as Jesus did. Jesus’s scars are reminders of his full solidarity with us as human beings. That healing and resurrection are always possible in our lives, and a promise that our scars may mark us, but they don’t have to shape us.

Jesus showed his own scars to his friends after resurrection because our scars are the signs that we all bear of what has shaped us, for good or for ill. We are all known by our scars—and with what we do with them. Do we use them as excuses to hurt others and leave scars of our own as we pass by? Or do we see them as signs that we have persevered and have healed? After Jesus shows his scars as a sign that the cross did not have the last word with him, Jesus commissions his followers—including you and me, even those of us who have to cross our fingers behind our backs at a lot of the claims made in the Creed-- to go out and continue his work. And that includes acknowledging the wounds and scars and suffering around us, and acting in the name of love to ameliorate them.

That’s part of what “salvation” and “redemption” mean—two words that get thrown around in Christian circles without nearly enough examination. Being saved and been redeemed by Jesus is NOT about what happens after death. It is about what happens now: the grace we receive, the healing we receive, and our obligation and joy to participate in giving that to others.

Jesus, whose name means Salvation, is here, right now, showing us his scars rather than chastising any of us for our questions and our doubts. He shows us the power of resurrection is absolutely reconciling and transformational—that’s the whole point. We can’t wipe away our pasts. But we can move beyond our wounds and welcome the healing balm of God’s love to take us from being a wounded victim to a joyful victor. In showing us his wounds, he invites us as his followers to go out and offer healing and reconciliation to those they encounter by proclaiming God’s power in the lives of everyone.

I have often wondered if Jesus didn’t wince a bit when Thomas touched those wounds—another image to which we all can relate. Jesus demonstrates that this—wounds and all—is his body. This is my Body, broken for you….” we intone at the Eucharist, and often without considering the impact of that remembrance, that statement. Jesus opens himself to us, bodily and spiritually around this altar every time we gather here.

We who have known woundedness are called to recognize God’s love in the wounds of Jesus. Top recognize that, and work to heal the wounds we encounter in the world today, since we are commissioned to action as the Body of Christ.

We can still see the wounds of Jesus all around us, as Pope Francis once remarked, on the bodies of those around us.

“How can I find the wounds of Jesus today? I cannot see them as Thomas saw them. I find them in doing works of mercy, in giving to the body — to the body and to the soul, but I stress the body — of your injured brethren, for they are hungry, thirsty, naked, humiliated, slaves, in prison, in hospital. These are the wounds of Jesus in our day.

"We must touch the wounds of Jesus, caress them. We must heal the wounds of Jesus with tenderness. We must literally kiss the wounds of Jesus…What Jesus asks us to do with our works of mercy is what Thomas asked: to enter his wounds.”


What does all of this mean for us, and our own struggles with faith, and our doubts? Thomas was simply trying to understand the meaning of those events of the last three days—remember that this story takes place on the evening of Easter Day and then seven days later. It’s all still fresh.

I wonder if that was indeed why Thomas needed to see those wounds—wounds that shocked and appalled Thomas even as they confirmed it was indeed his beloved teacher and not a ghost standing before him.

Just like Thomas, 2000 years later we wonder: What did it all mean? How could Jesus die on a cross, and why? What did that death mean—and certainly what did resurrection mean for Jesus’s closest friends and followers? Jesus is reappearing before his friends to remind them that they now carry on his healing, reconciling mission.

We are just like Thomas. But if we ask to see those wounds in the world, we, as the Body of Christ, also commit ourselves to working to bring healing, restoration, and justice to the places where those wounds exist—even if they are hard to see.

Jesus’s wounds are the signs of the power of God, not God’s weakness. They are the signs that Jesus has broken open the ways of death and destruction that governed the world. Jesus’s wounds remind us that our own wounds testify to the possibility and power of resurrection in our own lives through God’s steadfast lovingkindness, mercy, and grace. Jesus received those wounds for refusing to fight evil with evil, as he has been tempted to do from the time of his temptation in the wilderness by Satan at the beginning of his ministry, and as his followers had been tempted to do as the arresting authorities arrived to take Jesus into custody. Violence cannot overcome violence. Only love can. And love in action is the power of God in action-- and our own embodiment of Jesus as his Body, wounded and beautiful all at once.

Jesus invites us to bring our wounds and our doubts to him: they are honest signs of our paths to God, no matter how twisty or difficult. Jesus is our living breathing, wounded Savior who has overcome the worst humans and empires. Jesus invites us into living God’s dream for us and for all creation: a restored life, a resurrected life. Alleluia!


Preached at the 505 on April 23, and at the 8:00 and 10:30 am Eucharists at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville, MO.


Readings:


Citations:
Pope Francis, “Touching the Wounds of Jesus,” Morning Meditation in the Chapel of the Dominus Sanctae Marthae,  July 3, 2013. 

Sunday, April 17, 2022

Looking for the Living: Sermon for Easter Sunday, the Day of Resurrection, Year C



We all love to look for things. Think of the games that involve finding things from our childhood onward. Peek-a-boo. Hide and Seek. Kick the Can, for the older set. The Hidden Pictures puzzles in Highlights magazine that you read in the dentist’s office to distract yourself from the dread of having to visit the dentist. Word search puzzles. Where’s Waldo, or “Where in the USA is Carmen Sandiego?”, for all those 90s kids. Clue—the game and the movie. The puzzle where you have to find five differences between two seemingly identical pictures in the newspaper. In the Harry Potter universe, the player who can immediately win 150 points and end the game in the Wizard version of polo and soccer known as Quidditch is the player called the Seeker.

We all love to look for things—unless it’s our keys when we need to leave, or our glasses, at any time. Like these three poor reading glasses, looking for a home these last few weeks after they had been left here during Lent.

Lent is a time of losing— especially losing the barriers that we put between our hearts and God’s love. Easter is a time for seeking and finding—finding that the kingdom of God has already begun, each time it wins over the hearts of one of us to live a resurrection life.

Sometimes finding begins simply with seeking you’ve never had or thought possible, such as the moment the shepherds run on an angel’s say-so to find the baby Jesus in a manger, to today, we look to see signs of God’s presence all around us.

Stories of losing and finding are abundant throughout Luke’s gospel. Sometimes, finding begins with loss. Mary and Joseph turn around from being halfway home after a festival to find the 12-year-old Jesus back in the Temple instead of on the road with them. Sheep and coins and prodigal sons and elder sons—all get lost, and joyfully are found.

It’s a fact, though, that looking for something starts with the hope of actually finding it. So seeking begins with hope.


The Galilean women who approached that tomb at early dawn probably had lost all hope. They approached that tomb with dread, preparing themselves for a job they faced with dread: rolling away the stone, and seeking and anointing the broken yest beloved body of their precious teacher and friend.

What they found was the stone already rolled away.

What they found was an empty tomb.

And just when they were trying to take that all in, they suddenly have two men in dazzling clothes standing beside them and put forth a question what must have seemed to be nonsense:

Why do you look for the living among the dead?

The women don’t have an answer. And they don’t get to see Jesus. Not yet. But notice something: they don’t see Jesus, and yet they BELIEVE he has been resurrected. Even without seeing him for themselves. Compare that with apostles’ reaction: they scoff and call the women’s news an “idle tale.” Ah, yes—two words that have been used to undermine women’s experiences for millennia. Even Peter, when he runs back and sees the empty tomb goes away “amazed.” Amazed, but certainly not believing it, or he would have gone back to the apostles and told them so rather than just going home and staying quiet about it.

Those women are the only ones of Jesus’s disciples who have stayed faithful throughout this long journey from their homes in Galilee to the horror of Golgotha. When everyone else deserted Jesus on the cross, they stayed and watched. They stayed and watched as Nicodemus took down the body and wrapped it and placed it in his own new tomb. And they left only to obey the commandment. The minute it was permissible, they came back to do one final act of love and ministry for their beloved Jesus.

What if we could see these women as the model for our own life of faith? After all, we proclaim what we have never seen—and many of us rightfully struggle mightily at times with that. They respond to the incredible news of Jesus’s resurrection with hope, and then belief. Hope that helps us to seek and find the abundant life and grace God offers to each of us every day.

The angels call those women—and us—to a life in which we have the hope to seek the living rather than the dead. To seek hope when around us there is despair. To seek kindness where we see contempt. To seek abundance when we look at God’s beautiful creation all around us instead of scarcity. To seek love in a world of human alienation and fear, and justice and mercy in a world of exploitation and oppression.

To seek Jesus within ourselves and in each other, where he has asked to be all along.

What if we also took to heart the question the angels ask the women? For many of us, our hearts have taken a battering. For some of us, our hearts feel as cold and as empty as that tomb itself. So many of us feel alienated after all the disruptions of the last several years.

The empty tomb those women find on that early Easter morning reminds us of a vitally important assurance: the silence of God does not mean the absence of God. It means God is inviting us to seek, and find, and shout Alleluia! God is calling us into conversation, and inviting us to be the face and hands and heart of Christ in the world. That is the meaning of Easter, and of the resurrection-shaped life Jesus has proclaimed to us all along. And in seizing hold of that promise, we have life, everlasting and abundant, right now.

Why look for the living among the dead? Easter calls us to believe that love has the final say.

Each year we hear of more and more people turning away from faith—and faith communities themselves. Yet I am convinced that one of the root causes of the crisis of faith in modern life begins with too many of us thinking the cross is the end of the story. Too many of us only see the empty tomb, and think that’s the end. We look for the living among the dead. We long for the past—a past that really might not have been as easy as we remember—rather than looking to this moment and beyond. We look for things or money or power or thrills or distractions to fill the emptiness within us. And yet none of those are things that will last. I wonder if we don’t look for the living among the dead things that don’t satisfy because we are afraid to hope?

Why look for the living among the dead?

God is inviting us to live a resurrected life right now, the life of not just faith but action that we promise in our baptismal vows. We do not worship a crucified Savior. We worship a living, resurrected Savior. Death does not have the final word. Love does. That is the promise of Easter—and the hope that makes our hearts a fitting habitation for the living, risen Savior.

Jesus stretches out his hand toward each one of us in love and calls us to embrace the land of the living—right now. He has left the tomb--- and is asking to take up residence in your heart, and my heart.

St. Therese of Lisieux, the Little Flower, experienced dazzling visions in her brief life. And she offers us some advice on how to live a resurrected life on this great Easter day. She calls us to attend to Christ’s leaving the tomb—and his request to live always within our hearts. The poet Scott Cairns has adapted her words into a beautiful poem entitled “Attend:”

Attend


Notice! Jesus stands just before you,
waiting in the tabernacle shaped
for you—shaped precisely for you!
He burns with great desire
to enter into your heart.

Ignore the yammering demon
telling you “not so!” Laugh in his pinched face
and turn without fear to receive
the Jesus of quiet calm and utmost love.

Partake of His Mysteries often,
often as you can, for in Them you find
your sole, entire remedy, assuming—
of course—you would be cured. Jesus has not
impressed this hunger in your heart for nothing.

This gentle Guest of our souls
knows our every ache and misery.
He enters, desiring to find a tent, a bower
prepared for His arrival within us,
and that is all, all He asks of us.



Christ is Risen! Risen, and resurrected, and calling each of us to embrace a life of wonder, a life of love, a life of hope. A resurrected life—the only one worth living. Alleluia!






Preached at the Great Vigil of Easter, and the 8:00 and 10:30 am services on April 16 and 17, 2022 at St. Martin's Episcopal Church in Ellisville, MO.


Reading:

Citation:
Scott Cairns, ed. Endless Life: Poems of the Mystics, pp. 137-138



Friday, April 15, 2022

Jesus, Remember Me: Sermon for Good Friday



What does it mean to remember? Do the ways in which we remember a person or event matter?

In our everyday, secular lives, collective memory is the psychological term for the way a group of people are formed by their memories and understanding of the past. Memory forms that common identity and outlook. What we remember, and what we forget, shapes our present actions and our future in critical ways. Shared remembering forms us and unites us as a body. So it’s not just “remembering.” It is also crucially “re-membering” that we do here, understanding the events of the past as also what shape the present and the future as one people untied as a body. Memory unifies, and enriches our understanding of who we are.

 

This is also vitally true of our religious lives. Remembrance is, of course, at the heart of all worship. It’s at the heart of all prayer. We even hear it in the prayers that we hear coming from the cross on this day. 

 

And it is hard for anyone of conscience to really engage in the process of remembering the events we DO re-member and commemorate on this day, especially when we are talking about things like the horrors and realities of crucifixion. The weight of memory of such terrible events can seem overwhelming.

 

But remember we must, if we are to understand ourselves and God’s abundant love for us. Yet what does it mean to remember?

 

I ask this question on a day that is a day of particular holy remembrance for both Christians and our Jewish kindred, as Passover begins tonight at sundown.

 

Both Good Friday and Passover are particularly steeped in remembrance. “Remember that you were a slave in the land of Egypt; therefore I am commanding you to this memorial,” our Jewish kindred will intone tonight, gathered around a table, remembering their deliverance from certain destruction and death. And we too, gathered here, remember our own deliverance, and our own debt of gratitude to Jesus for his devotion to the cause of love as the only thing that can overcome death.

 

Today, even as our Jewish kindred gather together to remember and re-member their deliverance from slavery and death, we remember today Jesus passing over from life to death on a cross. We remember his death this day—as devastating as it is—but also remembering that in both our remembrances and our Jewish kindred’s remembrances, death never has the final word.

 

Thus we consider again the power of remembrance.

 

On the cover of our Good Friday bulletin there is a special image. It is a painting by the great 20th century master Marc Chagall entitled “White Crucifixion.” It is meant to remind us of the Jewishness of Jesus, and of our solidarity with people of faith across the spectrum of belief. The Jewishness of Jesus is especially important to remember on this day, at a time when some people are seeking to limit our full understanding and remembrance of the past.

 

I ask that you look at that image for just a few moments with me right now, and see what it is attempting to call us to remember on this particular day especially.

 

Chagall was born into a devout Jewish family in what was then the Russian Empire. At that time, Russian Jews were limited by law in where they could live throughout Europe. This concentration enabled targeted outbreaks of anti-Semitic violence to take place throughout the centuries. 

 

Jews were targets in Christian Europe for nearly two millennia-- in part because of a misguided understanding of the Biblical texts used on Good Friday that appear to place the blood-guilt for Jesus’s death on the Jewish people. An idea that is a lie, one of the most devastating lies ever told: the lie that some people deserve their suffering, and that their suffering actually benefits others somehow and is therefore, necessary. That’s an easy position to take when you aren’t the one doing the suffering, isn’t it. That’s why tyranny throughout history is founded upon people placing restrictions on others that costs them nothing and that they would never tolerate on themselves.

 

By the time Chagall painted this painting in 1938 from where he lived in France, the Nazi party had been in control of Germany for six years, and in those six years, the Nazi scapegoating of the Jews had become brutally evident. In 1936, the Nazis opened the concentration camp of Sachsenhausen, and in 1937 they opened Buchenwald. The year 1938, the year of Kristallnacht and of this painting, made clear the perils of Jewish identity in Europe. And of course, the next seven years would see the attempted extermination of the Jewish people at the hands of Nazi-led genocide. And even though Hitler and his henchmen were no Christians, they co-opted German Christianity with their National Church, and they found a ready source of support from Christians who had been taught that the Jews had killed Jesus.

 

“White Crucifixion” is a critical turning point in Chagall’s career, and is a daring and profound political as well as artistic statement denouncing war and religio-racial hatred. Russian pogroms and the rising Nazi Holocaust are equivalized. Chagall equates the suffering and threat to the Jews with Jesus’s crucifixion. 

 

The Jewishness of Jesus is emphasized: instead of a loin cloth, a prayer shawl drapes his body; the crown of thorns is a headcloth; and the mourning angels usually depicted around Jesus are instead three biblical patriarchs and a matriarch. On both sides of the cross we see pogroms, with villages afire and literally turned upside down. On the left of the cross, a man flees holding a Torah scroll, while on the right a synagogue and its Torah ark are in ashes, and a Torah scroll set aflame. Refugees flee on foot and by boat. And in the center is Jesus, placed on the cross by those forces of power who ever seek to destroy anything they do not understand and cannot control or co-opt.

 

The wonderful Jewish New Testament scholar Dr. Amy-Jill Levine in her commentary on the Passion Narratives, makes this profound but simple statement: 


“Memory can provoke ethical responses.” 


Memory forms our decisions about how to live a morally grounded, reverent life, in other words—and of course that is the very point of a life of faith. Faith is about how to live.

 

Dr. Levine’s reminder places an obligation within us to go more deeply below the surface, on this day of all days, because remembrance on this day has often been fraught with peril and even bloodshed between Christians and Jews, based on a lack of understanding of our texts that describe Jesus’s passion and death. When we look at the entire story of Jesus’s betrayal and death, we see that he was executed by the Roman Empire, and the Roman Empire alone, on a trumped up charge of which he was, as even the centurion noted, innocent. 

 

Jesus’s real “crime” was the crime of telling the truth in a world in which lies predominated. Lies that came at the poor and marginalized like a sledgehammer, designed to keep them beaten down and helpless to resist. Lies like calling Rome’s terror tactics of mass crucifixions all necessary in the service of so-called “greater good,” in this case the misnamed “Pax Romana,” or the “Peace of Rome.”

 

Jesus was executed for daring to critique the injustices and cruelties of Empire and our tendency to give in or claim helplessness to those cruelties rather than resist them. Jesus died for proclaiming an upside-down kingdom in which God’s values were foundational, rather than human calculations of power, cruelty, and exploitation, for offering hope to those who were the least of the least within that Empire. Hope, like memory, can be a dangerous thing. People have died for less.

 

So back to memory: as we contemplate the passion narrative we just heard, in all its pathos and heartbreak, we also hear a plea to remember. Did you notice it?

 

It comes from the lips of the so-called “Repentant Thief,” the one who traditionally was executed on Jesus’s right hand side. Tradition even ascribes a name to him: “Dismas,” a name that comes from the Greek word for sunset. On the other side of Jesus, tradition has assigned the Unrepentant Thief the name “Gesta,” which comes for the word for complaint or moaning. And indeed, that thief on the left not only complains and moans to Jesus, he repeats Satan’s temptation of Jesus in his challenge and mockery of Jesus’s powerlessness at that moment when all three hang above the barren landscape. “Are you not the Messiah? Save yourself and us, then!” he moans.

 

But the Repentant Thief, hanging on the right hand of the crucified God, rebukes his companion. Rebukes him, and claims that both of them deserve their fates for their crimes. He then addresses Jesus straightforwardly.

 

‘Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.’

 

Jesus immediately assures this repentant sinner that that very day he will be with Jesus in Paradise. Despite his crimes. Despite how he had lived his life up until that point. Despite whether he had checked the right religious boxes or not. All the evils he had done-- those will be forgotten, wiped out by his acknowledgment and his repentance, and his faith even at the gates of hell on earth.

 

The good news of today that we are called to remember is how very much God loves us. How much God calls us to the honest work of remembrance and the brave work of repentance. Jesus shows us that love in his outstretched arms and his forgiveness.

 

That amazing and abundant grace is what we are called to remember this day—to remember, and open ourselves to despite the cost, so that that memory and its ethical command may transform our lives just as it did the life of that Repentant Thief, even at the last. But beyond the hope it offers us, we are today also called to remember the reality of humanity’s cruelty to humanity—to remember and stand against injustice, and persecution, and dehumanizing others or scoffing at their pain or perceived powerlessness, as they Unrepentant Thief did.

 

And so today, at the foot of the cross, may we join together in this prayer: Jesus, remember me, when you come into your kingdom. 


And may we ever dedicate ourselves to remembering and re-membering within our own lives the gift of forgivenenss and salvation offered to us by the love of God, made visible in the suffering Christ on the cross. 


May we re-member and denounce attempts to place the blame for that suffering anywhere but where it belongs: on our own wayward tendency, as both individuals and as communities, to close our eyes to the suffering of others. Including suffering we either cause directly, or that is done in our names, as we confess every time we gather. 


May we allow our remembrance to transform our relationship with God, each other, and with all of creation.

 

 

Amen.


Preached at noon and 7 pm on Good Friday, April 15, 2022, at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville.


Readings:

Isaiah 52:13-53:12

Psalm 22

Hebrews 10:16-25

Luke 22:14-23:56


Note: The Passion Gospel read was adapted as a script and to address the appearance of anti-Judaism in the text. A copy of the script can be found here: https://poemspsalmsandprayers.blogspot.com/2022/04/script-passion-narrative-from-luke.html


Citations:

Amy-Jill Levine, Witness at the Cross: A Beginner's Guide to Holy Friday, pp. 37-49.

Henry L. Roedinger III and K. Andrew DeSoto, "The Power of Collective Memory," June 28, 2016, at Scientific American.


Images: "White Crucifixion," Marc Chagall, 1938, at the Art Institute of Chicago, photos mine.



For further reading on the appearance of Anti-Judaism in the passion narratives, please see Louis Weil, "Anti-Judaism Issues in the Scriptures for Holy Week," March 19, 2013, at Standing Commission on Liturgy and Music for the Episcopal Church.


Thursday, April 14, 2022

Beauty Broken Open: Speaking to the Soul for April 14, 2022



(Maundy Thursday, 2022)

When I was a child, our neighbors across the street, Veta and Myron, were a retired school principal and a retired school counselor. They were generous with their time—inviting us over to play on the swing set they still had up even though their son was long grown and gone. In a rarity for Tulsa, their home sat atop a cellar, and there our neighbor had a collection of rocks, semi-precious stones, and fossils. There were dozens of rose rocks, the State Rock of Oklahoma. He told me about the great inland sea that had once covered the central part of North America, and showed me rocks he had brought back from trips all over the continent. It didn’t take long until I was hooked, and I spent hours over there learning.

One day, he handed me a mud-colored gray-brown orb. It was perfectly round, and surprisingly light—about the size of a croquet ball. I thought it was pretty cool. Then he handed me a hammer. I was confused when he told me to put the rock on the work bench and hit it. But eventually I realized he was serious and did as I was told, not too hard. After a couple of whacks, the thing cracked, and he gave one more expert tap and the orb cracked open. Inside there was a glowing array of light lavender colored crystals. He told me it was a geode. He then let me take my treasure home. I wondered that something so drab and nondescript could be so beautiful when it was broken open.

Tonight, we observe Maundy Thursday—a day when we ourselves are invited to be broken open to the beauty and pathos of these next three holiest of days in the Christian calendar. Our service tonight begins what's known as the Triduum, the great three days leading up to Easter Sunday. In the early church, the Maundy Thursday service always began after sundown, just before Passover will begin for our beloved Jewish kindred after sundown tomorrow.

It is traditional for Christians to meet for a simple meal, engaging in foot washing as a sign of our servanthood, just as Jesus set an example for us, and then have Holy Communion one last time until the Great Vigil. And as we share together this Holy Communion, we are called to re-member that Jesus takes and blesses the bread before the meal itself has really started—he takes it and urges that it be broken and shared among those who sit with him at table for the meal. That bread cannot be shared unless it is broken. It cannot be used for eating the rest of the food. It must be broken in the same way that dawn must be broken, in the same way that geode must be broken in order to allow the beauty within to dazzle our eyes.

Tonight, we are reminded that Jesus gathers us, just as he did those apostles on that night long ago, and offers us the Peace of God, not for our own comfort only, but so that we can share and embody that Peace and Grace to those around us. Tonight we remember that Jesus showed us that the heart of love is service—humble, tender, and compassionate. Jesus shows us in word and action how to live the best life we can have. Tonight Jesus shows that only in breaking ourselves open can we be then filled with eternal life and love.

Tonight may we be willing to be broken open ourselves, broken open to the call of love and community and service to our neighbors and to creation, especially during these next beautiful three days.


This was first published at Episcopal Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 14, 2022.

Monday, April 11, 2022

Gethsemane



The grass never sleeps.
Or the rose.
Nor does the lily have a secret eye that shuts until morning.
Jesus said, wait with me. But the disciples slept.
The cricket has such splendid fringe on its feet,
and it sings, have you noticed, with its whole body,
and heaven knows if it even sleeps.
Jesus said, wait with me. And maybe the stars did, maybe
the wind wound itself into a silver tree, and didn’t move,
maybe
the lake far away, where once he walked as on a
blue pavement,
lay still and waited, wild awake.
Oh the dear bodies, slumped and eye-shut, that could not
keep that vigil, how they must have wept,
so utterly human, knowing this too
must be a part of the story.

-- Mary Oliver (1935-2019), Pulitzer Prize winning poet and recipient of the National Book Award