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Sunday, April 16, 2023

The Marks We Need to See: Sermon for Easter 2A



“Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life in his name.”

Our gospel writer known as John has a plethora of stories, and can’t be bothered to tell them to us there are so many, but THIS is the story the lectionary writers choose EVERY SINGLE Year for the 2nd Sunday in Easter?

And this one has more questions in it than answers, which of course is not surprising, but still. I am wondering if, like me, you may have heard this reading 50 times, but you have some questions.

For instance: where did Jesus go between Easter morning when Mary Magdalene thinks he is the gardener, and Easter evening, when he proves to the disciples that when he says “I am the door,” he means “No door can hold me out?”

And why was Thomas not there in the room? We’ve heard him speak only two other times in John’s telling of the gospel of Jesus. The first was in chapter 11, when Jesus decides to go to resurrect Lazarus, just two miles from Jerusalem, where the leaders there are trying to find any opportunity to kill Jesus, and Thomas moans morosely to the other disciples, “Let us also go, so that we may die with him.”

The second time is during Jesus’s Farewell Discourse, at the beginning of chapter 14, when Jesus urges his friends not to let their hearts be troubled even though he has just told Peter that he will deny even knowing Jesus three times that very night. As he announces he is leaving, he tells them they know the way to where he is going. Only Thomas is brave enough to pipe up: “No, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?” And Jesus then makes another of him vital “I am” statements, playing off the name for God. Jesus responds, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life.”

Remembering the first time Thomas is recorded as speaking sheds some light on why perhaps the disciples are hiding behind locked doors with all the rumors rattling around Jerusalem that Jesus may be dead or he may be alive despite what everybody saw with their own eyes. The disciples can’t bring themselves to leave, and yet they know that staying puts them at risk of joining Jesus on a cross or some other method of execution, perhaps death by stoning, which was the punishment for blasphemy at that time—the very death that the first martyr among the disciples, Stephen, will undergo for testifying about Jesus.

So to the first question. I imagine that Jesus, after letting Mary Magdalene know who he is, goes straight to his mother.

I personally, as a mother, hope that one of the stories omitted was Jesus returning to see his mother, calling her “Imma,” which means “Mama” rather than “Attha” which means “woman,” as we heard from the cross in John’s gospel. I believe this because I believe Jesus loved his mother, despite what some of the gospel writer depict. Read the Magnificat, and you know where Jesus got the courage to overturn those tables in the Temple. Consider a 14- or 15-year old girl embedded in a culture that made her a pawn having the audacity to consider and say yes to God despite what it could potentially cost her, and you see where Jesus gets the courage and resolution and passion for his earthly ministry.

I imagine that this meeting took place also because I also think of one of the last images in popular art of Mary with Jesus: that of the Pieta—whose name means “Pity,” or “Compassion.” After my mom took my brother and myself to Rome when I was seven, one of the things she carried back all through that journey was a smaller, about 8 inch high copy of the Pieta, a sculpture by Michelangelo that we had seen in the Vatican. Michaelangelo depicted the crucified Jesus sprawled across his grieving mother’s lap. 

I think of the Pieta, and I think that Jesus would have gone to his mother and given her a personal chance for that heartbreaking, traumatic image to not be the last image she had of her beloved first born. I think Jesus would have wanted to bring his mother’s broken heart to healing, because healing was the core of who he was. He would have wanted to show her his scars too, as a sign of his ongoing, resurrected life-- rather than leaving her with the image of his death.

I picture the risen Christ appearing before his mother in her house full of mourners just as he appears to these disciples in their locked room. Because if he did, he would hear her call him not “Jesus,” which is the Greek form of his name. No, Mary would breathlessly cry out his true name of “Yeshua,” which means “Salvation” in Aramaic.

Unlike Thomas, Mary would not ask to see the scars on his wrists and ankles and side. She would have been intimately familiar with those wounds as she held the body of her son sprawled across her lap. The marks she would want to see was the light of love in Jesus’s eyes as he embraced his mother. Even as those mourners sitting with her scatter in their confusion, Jesus and his mother embrace.

Then as to my second question of where was Thomas? Since I am not persuaded that Thomas has been treated fairly throughout the centuries with getting the adjective “doubting” permanently conjoined with his name, I imagine that Thomas wasn’t behind those locked doors because he was out on the streets looking for Jesus, as I wrote on Thursday for Episcopal Journal in my poem, “Thomas Speaks:”

What would you have done?
We all had heard Magdalene’s crazy tale,
but even after all the Master’s assurances,
it was fear that seized us.
My brothers and sisters shivering behind locked doors,
while I was out in the streets and the garden
looking for our risen Lord, hoping
to see him kneeling in some thicket,
speaking to God like a child speaks to his mother.
Why they should be more afraid of a missing corpse
than of the horrors of Golgotha I cannot say.
I was out looking for him,
looking, and scattering the resurrection news like seed.

I was the only one looking, hoping,
and yet the only one to not be found by him that night.
And so I missed his murmured “peace,”
his outpouring of Spirit and commission:
“Your forgiveness of sins forgives them;
your holding fast to someone holds them fast.”
But God knows we clung to each other in our grief,
and the whole town was muttering--
you could feel the rising fear lapping
at the foundations of our house.

An octave of days passed,
and this time I heard the melody of his voice
offering us peace once more.
I was like a man parched with thirst
offered sweet, cool spring water.
My mind whirled.
And so I confessed:
“Lord, I cannot be sure that it is you
Unless I myself see the wounds you bear.”
And touching them, I was able
to find my place on the map of the good news.

Our scars are proof of life and proof of God’s love.
The healing power of overcoming those wounds
make us who we truly are:
bearers of the image of Jesus,
the One who does wonders in our lives
by loving us, scars and all.
And with that promised peace,
holding each other fast in mercy and grace,
the world is changed.
And so I believe.



How might the world be changed if we were all out on the streets looking for the resurrected Jesus and proclaiming the good news of Christ to those we meet? What marks does the world need to see from us? What marks proclaim the good news of God’s amazing grace and abundant love, rather than reinforcing the worst impulses human beings have and are called to overcome by God?

You know, those of us in the church business as a profession traditionally refer to today as what is known as a “low Sunday.” That means “low attendance.” “Low Sundays” come after the cataclysmic celebrations of Christmas and Easter in particular. Those two celebrations are known for being times when there are lots of visitors, and lots of people who only attend worship on those two occasions each year. Some people make jokes about this. Some of these jokes are kindly meant, but many of them are not. Some of the jokes about those who come to church only on Christmas Day or Easter Sunday assume a sense of smug superiority over those new faces. And friends, that is certainly not kind, not is it welcoming.

Here's the thing: Easter can be extremely hard for some people. Easter talks about things that are unbelievable, for one. But going deeper, even if most of what you see is goofy Easter bunnies and Honeybaked Ham on a groaning dinner table covered in millions of calories, church is often at the center of Easter. Easter is notoriously one of two times every year when a lot of people who never go to church during the year drag out a pastel colored shirt and some slacks and a sport jacket, or a gauzy dress and if you are a lady from certain parts of the country a jaunty hat, and go to church. Some can’t bring themselves to do even this. A lot of people, in fact.

And for too many of these people, there is a reason why feeling that pull to cross the threshhold of a church is painful. The Big C, institutional Church, fallible and made up of fallible human beings as it is, has hurt them. It has told them that Christianity is about judging others and demanding sacrifices of their essential natures that those same judgmental ones would never even consider in their own lives. It’s a Christianity that looks for scapegoats while completely missing the irony that Jesus himself served exactly as that in the politics between the common people and the power of empire.

It’s a Christianity that decides that the people different than you are different than you due to sin, and that they need repentance. And then the next step is that it is a “Christianity” that tries to justify hating or marginalizing already marginalized people into repentance and thinking that that ever works, like we see in a plethora of bills in states across the country that target the poor, or minorities, or immigrants, or our LGBTQ kindred.

And all this is done in the name of the same Jesus we see today inviting people to see his wounds as signs of his realness. Or there are people who have been shamed for questioning, for doubting, like that’s a bad thing—just like poor old Thomas there, who gets that damning “Doubting” adjective permanently glued in front of his name forever, even though what he experiences is SO common and relatable, unlike all the apostles except for Judas.

Going back to church for those who have been hurt and marginalized by this kind of Christianity is more like returning to the scene of a crime than getting your spiritual batteries recharged. And those of us who identify ourselves as actively Christian thus are presented with our first chance to ourselves take part in the salvation of Jesus which bring healing and reconciliation. And we don’t even have to do it by glomming onto every stranger that walks through our doors, especially at Easter.

The good news of the time in which we live is that the world is our mission field, much like it was for those early disciples. The good news is that we, by our testimony, by just showing up and showing the marks of Jesus’s self-giving love, have it within our power to counter the narrative of exclusion and division and condemnation that passes for Christian belief in too much of the world outside our doors. We can and must be better than that, and do so visibly, embracing the vulnerability of Jesus in showing our marks, our scars, our empathy and common cause with those who are hurting.


The Church calls itself the Body of Christ for a reason. We call ourselves the Body of Christ because we ARE the living representation of who Jesus is to the world. Each and every one of us, and all of us collectively. And I am convinced that the marks the world needs to see are not the marks of a bully in the culture wars, othering people because we can get away with it. No, that is EXACTLY what put Jesus on the cross to begin with, and drives people away from a life of faith because they associate it with a life of exclusion, rejection, and casting people out rather than gathering them within the embrace of the outstretched arms of Jesus. By way of us.

What marks does the world need to see? The marks of love. The marks of compassion, like Mary holding the broken body of her baby boy on her lap. The wounds that tell the world that we are here to heal and reconcile no matter what it costs us, because that is exactly who Jesus was and IS. Present tense.

As I insisted last Sunday, we are an Easter people. We are a people who proclaim resurrection and eternal life in the name of a living God, a living Messiah, a living Holy Spirit. We can do it by showing the marks of Christ to a doubting world—a world that needs those marks now more than ever.

Amen.

Readings:

This was preached at the 505 on April 15 and the 10:30 Eucharist at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville, MO.

Citations:
The poem, "Thomas Speaks," was first published at Episcopal Journal and Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 13, 2023. Copyright Leslie Barnes Scoopmire. All rights reserved.






Amen.

Thursday, November 24, 2022

A Prayer for Thanksgiving: Speaking to the Soul, November 24, 2022



God of Abundant Grace,
your love preserves us
and calls us to wakefulness and compassion:
we raise our hearts in thankfulness and praise.

You, O God, call all the stars by their names,
and set them dancing overhead to our wonder and delight.
You teach the birds their songs
that lighten our hearts and call us to joy.
You have called us into community for our flourishing,
and called us to companionship in your Way of Love.

May we tend to the earth, and to each other,
with steadfastness and gratitude,
always seeing your imprint, Lord Christ,
wherever we look.

May we treasure friends and loved ones,
companions and fellow travelers on this earth,
and reach out to those around us in love and kindness.

May we be brave in loving,
bold in giving,
steadfast in hoping,
and grateful in all things.

May we seek to mend the wounds we have created,
and forgive those who have hurt us.

May we ever cultivate being honorable and compassionate,
being just while loving mercy and grace,
seeking purity while acknowledging our humanity.

Holy One, send your angels to tend to those
who call upon You and depend upon your care,
especially those away from home,
and those whose needs we place before You,
that your peace, surpassing all our knowing,
may be our embodied prayer.

Amen.


This was first published at Episcopal Journal and Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on November 24, 2022.

Sunday, April 24, 2022

Wounds, Doubts, and Resurrection: Sermon for Easter 2C



Welcome to our yearly visit with Honest Thomas—the disciple who asks what everyone else is wondering.

You might notice that I do not refer to him as “Doubting Thomas.”

That’s because it is pretty unfair to stick that label on him and not on the other ten remaining apostles. They ALL doubted. And who can blame them? That’s a completely human reaction to have.

Throughout the centuries there has been a hatchet job done on the whole concept of “doubt.” I have heard church people refer to doubt as “the lack of faith.” If you have doubts, they piously intone, you have “lost your faith.”

Not so.

The opposite of faith is not doubt. Doubt demonstrates that you are engaging with the questions before you, seriously. The opposite of faith is disengagement—in not wrestling with the questions, and their impact on our lives, at all. The opposite of faith is not caring, giving up. The life of faith is an active life—it doesn’t take place between your ears, but under your ribs. Faith is not an intellectual proposition to be proved or disproved based on evidence, but a conversion of heart and spirit toward a life seeking after the holy, the good, and the compassionate.

Instead, what I am drawn to thinking about this year as we hear this gospel is the idea of Jesus’s wounds. Not in a creepy way. But as signs of Christ’s solidarity with us.

Too often, wounds and scars are seen as imperfections, something to hide or be ashamed of. They are sometimes used to identify you—and even sometimes make you simply a collection of your wounds and scars, as if that is all there is to any person.

Have you ever noticed that when the authorities are looking for a missing person, they include information about their noticeable scars? Our scars are like our fingerprints—each unique.

Harrison Ford’s got a famous scar on his chin from a car accident, and he gave Sean Bean a scar on his forehead when filming Patriot Games. Harry Potter has his famous lightning-bolt shaped scar on his forehead, and Professor Dumbledore claims to have a scar on his knee that is a perfect map of the London Underground. The evil prince who usurps the throne in The Lion King is actually named Scar. Our beautiful Earth even bears wounds and scars, many inflicted by human activity. As we celebrated Earth Day this last week, I hope that many of us thought of those wounds, and what we could do, each of us, to bring them to healing and recovery.

I thought of the painting by Caravaggio of Jesus inviting what the artist called an “incredulous” Thomas to actually touch those wounds (see the cover image above). Heck, Jesus doesn’t just invite—he takes Thomas’s wrist and drawn him toward his side. Jesus shows Thomas his scars to help prove it’s really him when Thomas, like the rest of the apostles, has a hard time believing that Jesus has been resurrected from the dead. Jesus’s wounds tell the story of love triumphing over death and evil and cruelty.

Our wounds and our scars also each tell a story. When I look at the scars on my body, I remember how I got each of them. There’s a long straight scar on my left leg where it meets my foot—I got that when I was 18, sitting cross-legged on the floor trying to open a hard plastic package with a new doorknob in it. I broke every rule about knife safety I had been taught and turned the blade toward me as I tried to cut open the clamshell packaging. I didn’t feel so good about it either—or the fact that my dad actually almost passed out when he saw the minimal amount of blood as I asked him to take me to the ER. That scar also memorializes the day I learned my dad was afraid of the sight of blood—one of his wounds I could not see.

Then there are scars that are invisible—internal, emotional scars. The ones we bear from heartbreak, or trauma, or abuse, or neglect—and the ones we frequently overlook in others in our rush to judge them. Those scars also tell a story of survival and resilience. Many of us have some new ones after the last few years.

And these internal scars, once we seek help and healing for them, once we accept that they are part of what makes us who we are but not the totality of who we are, are also an opportunity for us to develop empathy and choose a different path, so that we do not, in turn, inflict new scars like ours on others. Thanks to the love of Jesus in the tender hearts of others who have loved me and ministered to me, those kind of scars in my life I have eventually learned to treasure as precious reminders that I have choice, and agency, to break the cycles of pain and suffering that caused others to wound me and scar me. They remind me that I have survived, and that I am more than just my wounds and my scars. They remind me that there is always hope for healing.

Some people are ashamed of their wounds and scars. Our society puts too much emphasis on the idea of perfection being related to looking like you’ve never experienced the touch of pain or aging or just plain old living. That’s not healthy. But scars can also be noble. They are markers of endurance. We can also look at scars as signs of our survival and healing. They are signs of resilience.

As I preached last Sunday on Easter Day, we are being called to live a resurrected life. But even in that resurrected life, we too still bear the wounds and scars of our lives. Jesus’s scars are reminders to all of us that in undergoing death of a cross, Jesus takes the human experience of pain, suffering, and death into the very essence of the Triune God. God truly understands our pains and our traumas—including those we have undergone unjustly, just as Jesus did. Jesus’s scars are reminders of his full solidarity with us as human beings. That healing and resurrection are always possible in our lives, and a promise that our scars may mark us, but they don’t have to shape us.

Jesus showed his own scars to his friends after resurrection because our scars are the signs that we all bear of what has shaped us, for good or for ill. We are all known by our scars—and with what we do with them. Do we use them as excuses to hurt others and leave scars of our own as we pass by? Or do we see them as signs that we have persevered and have healed? After Jesus shows his scars as a sign that the cross did not have the last word with him, Jesus commissions his followers—including you and me, even those of us who have to cross our fingers behind our backs at a lot of the claims made in the Creed-- to go out and continue his work. And that includes acknowledging the wounds and scars and suffering around us, and acting in the name of love to ameliorate them.

That’s part of what “salvation” and “redemption” mean—two words that get thrown around in Christian circles without nearly enough examination. Being saved and been redeemed by Jesus is NOT about what happens after death. It is about what happens now: the grace we receive, the healing we receive, and our obligation and joy to participate in giving that to others.

Jesus, whose name means Salvation, is here, right now, showing us his scars rather than chastising any of us for our questions and our doubts. He shows us the power of resurrection is absolutely reconciling and transformational—that’s the whole point. We can’t wipe away our pasts. But we can move beyond our wounds and welcome the healing balm of God’s love to take us from being a wounded victim to a joyful victor. In showing us his wounds, he invites us as his followers to go out and offer healing and reconciliation to those they encounter by proclaiming God’s power in the lives of everyone.

I have often wondered if Jesus didn’t wince a bit when Thomas touched those wounds—another image to which we all can relate. Jesus demonstrates that this—wounds and all—is his body. This is my Body, broken for you….” we intone at the Eucharist, and often without considering the impact of that remembrance, that statement. Jesus opens himself to us, bodily and spiritually around this altar every time we gather here.

We who have known woundedness are called to recognize God’s love in the wounds of Jesus. Top recognize that, and work to heal the wounds we encounter in the world today, since we are commissioned to action as the Body of Christ.

We can still see the wounds of Jesus all around us, as Pope Francis once remarked, on the bodies of those around us.

“How can I find the wounds of Jesus today? I cannot see them as Thomas saw them. I find them in doing works of mercy, in giving to the body — to the body and to the soul, but I stress the body — of your injured brethren, for they are hungry, thirsty, naked, humiliated, slaves, in prison, in hospital. These are the wounds of Jesus in our day.

"We must touch the wounds of Jesus, caress them. We must heal the wounds of Jesus with tenderness. We must literally kiss the wounds of Jesus…What Jesus asks us to do with our works of mercy is what Thomas asked: to enter his wounds.”


What does all of this mean for us, and our own struggles with faith, and our doubts? Thomas was simply trying to understand the meaning of those events of the last three days—remember that this story takes place on the evening of Easter Day and then seven days later. It’s all still fresh.

I wonder if that was indeed why Thomas needed to see those wounds—wounds that shocked and appalled Thomas even as they confirmed it was indeed his beloved teacher and not a ghost standing before him.

Just like Thomas, 2000 years later we wonder: What did it all mean? How could Jesus die on a cross, and why? What did that death mean—and certainly what did resurrection mean for Jesus’s closest friends and followers? Jesus is reappearing before his friends to remind them that they now carry on his healing, reconciling mission.

We are just like Thomas. But if we ask to see those wounds in the world, we, as the Body of Christ, also commit ourselves to working to bring healing, restoration, and justice to the places where those wounds exist—even if they are hard to see.

Jesus’s wounds are the signs of the power of God, not God’s weakness. They are the signs that Jesus has broken open the ways of death and destruction that governed the world. Jesus’s wounds remind us that our own wounds testify to the possibility and power of resurrection in our own lives through God’s steadfast lovingkindness, mercy, and grace. Jesus received those wounds for refusing to fight evil with evil, as he has been tempted to do from the time of his temptation in the wilderness by Satan at the beginning of his ministry, and as his followers had been tempted to do as the arresting authorities arrived to take Jesus into custody. Violence cannot overcome violence. Only love can. And love in action is the power of God in action-- and our own embodiment of Jesus as his Body, wounded and beautiful all at once.

Jesus invites us to bring our wounds and our doubts to him: they are honest signs of our paths to God, no matter how twisty or difficult. Jesus is our living breathing, wounded Savior who has overcome the worst humans and empires. Jesus invites us into living God’s dream for us and for all creation: a restored life, a resurrected life. Alleluia!


Preached at the 505 on April 23, and at the 8:00 and 10:30 am Eucharists at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville, MO.


Readings:


Citations:
Pope Francis, “Touching the Wounds of Jesus,” Morning Meditation in the Chapel of the Dominus Sanctae Marthae,  July 3, 2013. 

Sunday, March 27, 2022

Coming Home to God: Sermon for Lent 4C



Chapter 15 of Luke’s gospel begins with two other stories right before our gospel passage: the parable of the lost sheep, and the parable of the lost coin:

4‘Which one of you, having a hundred sheep and losing one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness and go after the one that is lost until he finds it? 5When he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders and rejoices. 6And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and neighbors, saying to them, “Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.” 7Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous people who need no repentance.

8 ‘Or what woman having ten silver coins, if she loses one of them, does not light a lamp, sweep the house, and search carefully until she finds it? 9When she has found it, she calls together her friends and neighbors, saying, “Rejoice with me, for I have found the coin that I had lost.” 10Just so, I tell you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.’


The eliminated stories make very clear that all three parables are about rejoicing when the lost is found—for relationships that are restored. The application for our behavior then also has to do with rejoicing over the one who has repented instead of judging them and refusing to forgiven for their mistakes. These stories are about accepting repentance freely, rather than demanding punishment from those who have done wrong so that they “earn” forgiveness.

I think too often when we hear this parable, and many other parables, we want God’s “justice” to mirror human “justice.” And the human “justice system” is not about reforming people; it’s not about reconciling those who have hurt others to those they have hurt. It’s simply about punishing wrongdoers. It’s about responding to the lost coin by locking the remaining one’s into a tighter grip. It’s about writing off the lost sheep as collateral damage. But God’s justice is NEVER about punishment, which is something we all can be grateful for if we acknowledge how God’s grace has worked in our own lives.

We hear three parables in quick succession of seeking and restoring precisely because Jesus is insisting that God is a seeker and a restorer, NOT a punisher.



The younger son has demanded the portion of his inheritance that would have gone to him—when his father died. The outrageous implication here is that he is not willing to wait and work to inherit, but is willing to break up his father’s estate and household in order to live according to his will rather than by his Father’s.

The younger son goes to a distant country—one where there is no sense of obligation to each other, the kind of obligation that is at the heart of the Great Commandment to love God and each other no matter if you know that other person or not. In this country to which the younger son travels there is no concept of living by a covenant of grace, as the laws of the Torah and the New Testament demand. In that place there was no command to love your neighbor. In that place there was no obligation to care for the widow, the orphan, or the poor. In that place there was no concern for the oppressed. As long as you have plenty of resources, you can cruise along. Sounds like the world in which WE live right now. And it’s a place of the heart rather than a particular geographical place. It’s a place where people deny the universal need of all of us for the grace of God.

The older son refuses to enter and resents the feast for the younger son because he is eaten up with the idea that junior has gotten away with something. Yet the father, when he pleads with the elder son to join the feast, assures him that it isn’t going to cost him anything to be glad his brother is back and not dead. I mean, remember, he’s turning down a FEAST. And it will cost him nothing to come in and be glad his brother is still alive, is still capable of redemption.

Nothing but his pride. Nothing but his hard heart.

You know, there’s a reason why there is a common saying, “There but for the grace of God go I.” Instead of being grateful for the fact he has NOT been through what his brother has, instead of being reassured that the same rules of forgiveness and abundant mercy apply to him, he wants to tear down the bonds of love, so sure is he that he will never himself need help.

There’s a name for that. It’s called self-righteousness. And self-righteousness poisons the person who wraps themselves in it. It causes us to be lost in a foreign land of our own bitterness, our own resentment, our own pain where we tell ourselves we have no need for God’s grace, that grace is a safety net only for sinners—forgetting that all sin and fall short of the right relationship with God and their neighbor. We all do.

No, we certainly are all prodigals. We are extravagant when spending our emotional and even spiritual currency on ourselves, rather than realizing that all we have belongs to God. And that leads not to happiness and contentment, much less real joy. It leads, as we see with both sons, to despair, bitterness, ruin.

Notice that with both sons, the parent, who could simply demand obedience, instead goes to them. To the wayward younger son, who has been physically lost, his parent even RUNS to greet him before he is halfway up the street. To the bitter older son, he leaves the feast and pleads with him for a change of heart, from demanding that someone else be punished to being grateful that the same generous, amazing grace and mercy his brother is visibly receiving now is always there for him too. To both sons, the parent offers his love, his assurance to them of how precious they are to him.

But what if the important point is that no matter how far we stray from God, God is always more than willing to call us back, and will start toward already from the halfway point. We don’t have to be able to take the whole journey ourselves, with God as some sort of immovable wall to be scaled. 

No, God’s abundant lovingkindness and grace meets us more than halfway and always calls us to return no matter how truculent we are. St. Augustine claims we are born with a space in our heart that only God can fill—and that we keep searching until we find it. Sometimes, like the kids in Willy Wonka we try to fill that space with other things, cheap substitutes that do not fill our need for connection but instead feed our greed and fears. They will never satisfy. When people have fallen into that kind of thinking, there will NEVER be enough. We see it all the time in our public discourse.

Our hearts are placed in the center of our bodies for efficiency when we think of them as mere pumps. But our spiritual hearts are placed in the center of our bodies to remind us that what is on the surface means little.

Both sons have an affliction of their hearts—their hearts are turned toward themselves rather than outward toward love of God and love of each other. The same affliction that shapes the world in which we live right now. But the cure begins small—one heart at a time. In our own hearts. As former Archbishop of Canterbury Rowan Williams states:

It is not that I have a long journey to undertake in order to get to God, but that I have a long journey to my own reality. It is my heart, the centre or source of my own being, that is furthest away from my surface mind and feelings, and pilgrimage is always a travelling to where I am. . . . God is not merely, like the Prodigal’s Son’s father, on the way to us: he is there at the heart. Or: he travels to meet himself in what is always other, eager to recognize his own joy and beauty in the distinctness of what is not God’s self. However we put it—there are countless ways—God’s loving kindness is there ahead of us. Forgiveness is never a matter of persuading God of something but of discovering for myself that there is no distance to be crossed, except that longest journey to that which gives truth and reality to my very self.


What if we heard this story as a story of gratitude for unearned forgiveness? What if we paid attention to the JOY that the finder expresses in each of those three parables, instead of focusing on the bitter whispers of others who expect God to balance out punishment to everyone else on some great heavenly balance sheet so that they can feel better about themselves?

Some of us identify with the younger brother: we have all done thoughtless things. Some of us identify with the father, especially if we have ever thought we lost someone or something precious only to have the joy of restoration take the place of our anticipatory grief. Some of us identify with the older brother, and resent the heck out of anyone who gets a second chance when we think they don’t deserve it.

As you know, I have also been including poetry in our adult forum classes, and while doing my reading, I discovered what is considered to be one of the shortest poems in the English language, so short its title is longer than the poem itself. It is attributed to George MacDonald, called “The Shortest and Sweetest of Songs.” Here it is:

Come.
Home.

As we prepare for the easing of restrictions from these long months of COVID precautions, I hope you hear the promise of the two most beautiful words that lie under our gospel selection from Luke. Those two words were probably in the heart of the father every day his son was gone.


Those two words also have a very practical component in our church life right now, too. As we find a new normal, rather than mourn or resent what we’ve done without, let’s return stronger and more resolute than ever to holding fast to these precious relationships that feed us. Let’s join hands, and give thanks for the amazing grace of those two words: Come Home. Let’s say them to each other, and invite those we know into the warmth and welcome of this place and the knowledge and love of God in Christ.

But as we look over the long journey of the last two years, even when we have felt isolated or alone, remember that God has been beside you, supporting you and reminding you of the abundant, tender care God lavishes upon us, in times of joy and also, even though we might need to reach through the anxiety or numbness, in times of trial.

And all along, we have each other. And as long as we have that, we can hold fast to each other, and return to living into ways old and new that we remain bound within each others’ lives.

Come as you are. Come home to yourself, and the amazing gift of God’s grace and mercy that upholds each and every one of us no matter our circumstances.

Come home.



Preached at the March 26 505 and the March 27 10:30am Eucharist (in person and online) at St. Martin's Episcopal Church in Ellisville, MO.

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Sunday, April 11, 2021

The Story We Missed: Sermon for Easter 2B



Every year we hear this gospel on the 2nd Sunday of Easter. Maybe it’s because, just like the apostles, we have a hard time believing in the stories of the resurrection, even though we shouted “alleluias” with joy just a week ago. Another possible reason for the choice of this gospel every year might be that this pericope spans the night of Easter Sunday itself
and then skips ahead exactly one week later, just as we contemplate this story exactly one week after Easter Sunday.

Our reading today ends with a statement that there were many other signs and wonders that Jesus did, but that THIS story was chosen to aid us in our belief. One wonders at the idea that this story is meant to help us believe. Surely some of those other stories would have been more inspiring, more persuasive.

I personally, as a mother, hope that one of the stories omitted was Jesus returning to see his mother, calling her “Imma,” which means “Mama” rather than “Attha” which means “woman,” as we heard from the cross in John’s gospel. I believe this because I believe Jesus loved and adored his mother, despite what some of the gospel writers depict. 

Jesus is his mother's son. Read the Magnificat, and you know where Jesus got the courage to overturn those tables in the Temple. Consider a 14- or 15-year old girl embedded in a culture that made her a pawn or possession, having the audacity to consider and say yes to God despite what it could potentially cost her, and you see where Jesus gets the courage and resolution and passion for his earthly ministry.

I pray that this meeting took place also because I also think of one of the last images in popular art of Mary with Jesus: that of the Pieta—whose name means “Pity,” or “Compassion.” After my mom took my brother and myself to Rome when I was seven, one of the things she carried back all through that journey was a smaller, about 8 inch high copy of the Pieta, a sculpture by Michelangelo that we had seen in the Vatican. It was made out of marble, too-- and so it was NOT light.

In this statue, Michaelangelo depicted the crucified Jesus sprawled across his grieving mother’s lap. I think of the Pieta, and I think that Jesus would have gone to his mother and given her a personal chance for that image to not be the last image she had of her beloved first born. I think Jesus would have wanted to bring his mother’s broken heart to healing, because healing was the core of who he was and is. He would have wanted to show her his scars too, as a sign of his ongoing life, rather than leaving her with the image of his death.

I picture the risen Christ appearing before his mother in her house full of mourners just as he appears to these disciples in their locked room. Because if he did, he would hear her call him not Jesus which is the Greek form of his name. No, Mary would breathlessly cry out his true name of “Yeshua,” which means “Salvation” in Aramaic.

It is always important for us to remember that everything we read in scripture is not just translation, but it is often a translation of a translation of a translation in the New Testament especially, going backwards from English to Biblical Greek to possibly Hebrew and then Aramaic, the milk-language of Jesus and his followers.

I picture this scene as one of the regrettably omitted stories from John’s gospel because the word “salvation” is another word that has gotten twisted about in our modern religious language just a bit. Too many people hear that word and think that all it means is about what happens after we die, and two divergent tracks then appear, so that “salvation” becomes a kind of fork in the road.

The first track is that people are told salvation is about the afterlife. And they think of all those images of hellfire and brimstone and eternal torture for those condemned, images that even show up on Saturday Night Live--and what is more secular than Saturday Night Live, when you think about it? They think of those images, and even behind the cartoonish quality in popular culture they get scared, and then they turn this whole “following Jesus” thing from a relationship to a transaction, as we Americans are particularly prone to do.

We love transactions for the neatness of them. We especially love to get a “bargain.” And so, soon, salvation becomes a bargain with God, to see what the lowest price to get ourselves some of this “heaven” thing: 
“Do I just have to say I believe in you, God?” 
“Do I just have to get baptized?” 
“How about if I confine you to Sunday and go to church? Is that enough?” 

And we make these bargains in our relationships all the time, hoping to insulate ourselves from paying a cost too high to keep ourselves comfortable and keep our lives with its familiar shapes and concerns—most of which have nothing to do with God, or with how we spend our lives on Earth each and every day, clinging to our old ways and often our old hurt and old scars. And so for Christians, then Jesus becomes a kind of agent, like a real estate agent or insurance agent, who helps us make the deal with God. If we believe in him, he helps us out. Quid pro quo. This for that. Neat.

The other track we get when some of us hear the word “salvation” is for those of us who have a hard time imagining for certain what happens to us after we die, and so we lose interest. This is probably a broader swath of the population than we might think, especially for those of us brought up under some kind of Christian faith that used transactional theology because transactions are the bedrock of too many of our relationships. But there are people who do not spend their time wondering about what happens after we die. That’s off in the future, and they’re just surviving day to day. Or they’re trying to make THIS world a better place, not just for themselves but for everybody, and the concept of “salvation” as it is packaged just doesn’t seem to apply.

But let me suggest that the story we hear today is all about salvation—but salvation as Jesus insistently framed it. Throughout Jesus’s ministry and teaching, salvation isn’t about heaven or hell when we die, but about the way God can and DOES work in our lives. 

Salvation is about trusting in that power as a LIVED reality. It’s about leaning into that power right now, in the present moment and every moment of our lives, to let love heal us, broaden our perspective from the miserly and the afraid to the brave and empowered. 

The salvation that Jesus embodies, from his very name outward, is 
about healing, 
about reconciliation, 
and about awakening the divine spark within each and every one of us.
Salvation begins now, so that we too can carry on Jesus’s ministry of reconciliation as the very best, most joyful way to live our lives and to help heal the broken places in both ourselves and in the world around us.

And so, as our gospel still hasn’t moved us from the evening of Resurrection Day, and as we are just starting out in the early days yet of the Easter season that lasts 50 days, I hope we can think of Jesus tenderly caring for all of those he loves, including with his mother among his disciples. I hope we can proclaim his as seeking to heal the wounds all of us carry so that we can feel empowered to themselves engage in healing, in reconciling, in true salvation which builds bridges rather than divides. To love others enough to ever widen the circle of those who have been saved from emptiness, despair, fear, and hopelessness—all the things those disciples are feeling in that room when Jesus suddenly appears in the midst of them and breathes his peace all over them again. Because THAT is a true salvation.

Because here’s another thing about Easter: Easter can be extremely hard for some people. Easter talks about things that are unbelievable, for one. But going deeper, even if most of what you see is goofy Easter bunnies and debates over whether Peeps are actually “food” or instead sugary Styrofoam, good only for creating diaramas, 
church is often at the center of Easter. Easter is notoriously one of two times every year when a lot of people who never go to church during the year drag out a pastel colored shirt and some slacks and a sport jacket, or a gauzy dress and if you are a lady from certain parts of the country a jaunty hat, and go to church. Some can’t bring themselves to do even this. A lot of people, in fact.

And for too many of these people, there is a reason why feeling that pull to cross the threshhold of a church is painful. The Big C, institutional Church, fallible and made up of fallible human beings as it is, has hurt them. It has told them that Christianity is about judging others and demanding sacrifices of their essential natures that those same judgmental ones would never even consider in their own lives. It’s a Christianity that looks for scapegoats while completely missing the irony that Jesus himself served exactly as that in the politics between the common people and the power of empire.

It’s a false Christianity, that tries to justify hating certain people into repentance-- like that ever works! It's behind a bill brought up in Arkansas recently that sought to give medical professionals who identify as Christian the right to refuse to treat people if they suspect they are LGBTQ—all in the name of the same Jesus we see today inviting people to see his wounds as signs of his realness. Or there are people who have been shamed for questioning, for doubting, like that’s a bad thing—just like poor old Thomas there, who gets that damning “Doubting” adjective permanently glued in front of his name forever, even though what he experiences is SO common and relatable.

Going back to church for those who have been hurt and marginalized by this kind of Christianity is more like returning to the scene of a crime than getting your spiritual batteries recharged. And those of us who identify ourselves as actively Christian thus are presented with our first chance to ourselves take part in the salvation of Jesus which bring healing and reconciliation. And we don’t even have to do it by glomming onto every stranger that walks through our doors, especially at Easter.

We don’t have to do this work by starting at trying to scare people into belief-- and by that I mean a bargain with God so that they can avoid “hell.” We do this by revealing salvation as a life moving toward healing even for those who feel like they have no hope of being loved for who they are. We can start by actually SEEING everyone the same way that Jesus did—as beloved. Beloved as we all are and not excluded due to some checklist created by fearful people. Beloved even as we all are, even as we find our ways out of various wildernesses like addiction, racism, homophobia, taking advantage of others, or misogyny.

Jesus showed his own scars to his believers after resurrection because our scars are the signs that we all bear of what has shaped us, for good or for ill. We are all known by our scars—and with what we do with them. Do we use them as excuses to hurt others and leave scars of our own as we pass by? Or do we see them as signs that we have persevered and have healed? After Jesus shows his scars as a sign that the cross did not have the last word with him, Jesus commissions his followers—including you and me, even those of us who have to cross our fingers behind our backs at a lot of the claims made in the Creed to go out and continue his work.

Yeshua, whose name means Salvation, is here, right now, showing us his scars and commissioning his followers to go out and offer healing and reconciliation to those they encounter by proclaiming God’s power in the lives of everyone. 

As disciples, we are called to spread the good news of healing and restoring hope--not by condemning people for their alleged sinfulness, but by embracing them just as God embraces us through our best times and our worst times. And here is where the layers of human translation have to be peeled back again, because many scholars point out that the earliest text specifically reads, “Of whomever you forgive the sins, they (the sins) are forgiven to them; whomever you hold fast [or embrace], they are held fast.’ We engage in the work of salvation when we hold fast to the people we meet, scars and all, and share God’s love that we have been given with them. That means we don’t do Jesus’s work by telling people they are irretrievably broken and rejected, as too many people hear in the mouths of preachers and spokespersons for the institutional Church.

Salvation is Jesus’s message and ministry, his “good news” that never gets stale. But it is not a transaction for us as individuals, but a transformation for us into a community of faith and generous, loving engagement with all of those around us.

We can with honesty and hope share our scars with those around us too—share our scars, and the healing grace we have received from God in our own specific lives. It begins by sharing the story too many have missed. It begins by unlocking the locked doors we hide behind, and wearing our scars as a sign of our healing, of our solidarity with Jesus in his work of transformation and hope. Known by our scars, proclaiming life beyond them-- that's the missing story so many need.

Amen.

Preached at the 10:30 am online Eucharist at St. Martin's Episcopal Church in time of pandemic, April 11, 2021.

Readings:


Attributions:
I am deeply indebted to The Rev. Barbara Brown Taylor for her article, "Easter Preaching and the Lost Language of Salvation," from the Journal for Preachers, Easter 2002, pp. 18-25.


Friday, April 2, 2021

In the Garden: Sermon for Good Friday, 2021



Every year when I was a high school teacher, I used to love to teach my students about the 1960s, and that usually was happening right about this time every year. One of the things I shared with them was the Joni Mitchell song about Woodstock. You know that one, right? Here’s how the song’s chorus goes:

“We are stardust, we are golden,
we are caught in the devil’s bargain,
and we’ve got to get ourselves back to the garden.”(1)

Countless writers and musicians have talked about our longing to get back to that garden in the beginning, where we were innocent.

Our story today in the gospel of John begins in a garden. And the mention of that garden is meant to remind us of the garden that Joni sang about. The author of the gospel of John is writing a new version of the creation story.

In the beginning, God placed us in a garden, but eventually, we forgot who we were-- and whose we were. All we had to do was trust in God, who even walked with us each day in the cool of the evening. God gave us freedom, because love can only be given in freedom, and God loved us and all of creation.

Once, we walked in a garden with God, and it wasn’t enough for us. We thought God was trying to box us in, and we responded with suspicion, which led to rebellion. Distrust leads us to be cut off from the love that offers itself to us freely, because we are afraid it will take something from us. It leads to wanting to hurt others-- and sometimes even those who are close to us—before they hurt us.

We disobeyed, and in our freedom, we turned from confidence to fear and, and then shame- shamed for our naked fear, when we had never been given any reason to doubt.

And on that day, God came looking for us. But we hid ourselves- even though we had begun hiding the second we listened to that intruder in the dust cajole us into uncertainty and suspicion. And later, we told ourselves that God had put us out of the garden, when in truth we had turned our backs on home. And we continued to hide from God throughout the centuries, unable to return to full obedience, unable to empty ourselves of all our stubbornness and pride.

At the beginning of our gospel for Good Friday, the Word of God, Jesus of Nazareth, is in a garden too. But Jesus, the bridge between humanity and God, is not hiding. This time, the forces of the world come looking for a rebel and a blasphemer. They are looking for someone who they believe has committed the sins of Adam: rebellion, and claiming to be God. The sins we’ve all been committing throughout time.

Yet Jesus, who is a new Adam, is not hiding from anyone. Instead, he boldly walks out to those looking to seize him. Instead of rebellion, Jesus acts out of perfect obedience, love, and unity with God. Instead of Adam choosing sin in opposition to love, this new Adam, Jesus of Nazareth, chooses to act in love in opposition to sin.

Once again, God knows his love will be met with rejection. This Adam is truly God’s son. Once again, we find the one who wants to give us everything, and we react with doubt, rejection, and fear. Jesus plainly tells us who he is, using the same name that came to Moses out of the burning bush. Those who come to that garden are seeking a rebel; but instead they find God in the shape of Jesus. Yet we still refuse to recognize God as God. Instead WE rebel. WE want to be in charge.

We want to be gods. That’s the REAL original sin. And it is as prevalent today as it was millennia ago, as we deny science, and deny community and deny that we care about anyone other than ourselves. We have elevated ourselves and made our feelings of grievance our gods. And it is exactly that tendency that puts Jesus on the cross.

Jesus turns our first story of a garden on its head. Jesus will go willingly from that garden, into the place where we all face trials, and place himself in the hands of evil so that he may show that the love of God always wins out over fear and sin.

On the way to the cross, and on the cross itself, Jesus shows us the way of Isaiah 41:10 – words of promise and comfort that we need today more than ever as the pandemic continues into its second year, and as some of us still refuse to acknowledge the claims our neighbors make upon us to act out of charity rather than arrogance in doing what we can, even something as small as wearing a mask. Isaiah 41:10 says this:

“Do not fear, for I am with you,
do not be afraid, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, and I will help you,
I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.”

“Do not be afraid, for I am your God.” God loves us enough to be ours even when we are not willing to submit to belonging to God.

“Do not fear, for I am with you,” God whispers to his beloved Son as he suffocates on the cross through our own fault. Our sin—our doubt, our disbelief, our suspicion, our fear—has put Jesus on that cross. Yet God is there with Jesus, bending down as human freedom plays itself out, even to the point of putting Jesus on a cross to suffer and die.

“Do not fear, for I am with you,” Jesus whispers to us even as we seize him and condemn him to suffer for our own fear and sinfulness.

Like our brethren the Jews, we Christians are a remembering people. We remember each time we worship, each time we read scripture, and we remember each time we share communion together, remembering this moment, when Christ our Passover is sacrificed for us. That’s why our liturgy has us sing, “We remember his death, we proclaim his resurrection, we await his coming in glory.” Today, on Good Friday, we remember Jesus’s death. Death for the sake of us all. And we await his coming in glory.

With a quiet “it is finished,” the old creation, which we had misshaped through sin and fear in that first garden, is ended.

But what happens on the cross is not just an ending, but also a beginning. There is a new creation that is
begun on that cross, a new world for all of us who look upon it. We are born anew through what happens on that cross.

Our story begins in a garden, and our story ends in a garden, or so we think. The last image we see this Good Friday is another garden, redolent with the scent of jasmine, and hyssop, and more faintly, frankincense and myrrh. Jesus’s body is put into another garden—a garden with a tomb, but from this tomb, death is going to be defeated. Unless a seed falls to the earth and dies, it bears no fruit. The power of sin is going to be, and is, vanquished. Death will itself be, and is, destroyed.

By faith, we have come this far, tottering like toddlers on the feet of hope—and God has not brought us this far to abandon us now at the grave.

God
Has
Not
Brought
Us
This
Far
To
Abandon
Us
Now
At
The
Grave.

Let a new creation spring up in our hearts, even as we watch and wait for our Savior.


Amen.

Preached at the noon Good Friday service online at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville, on April 2, 2021.

Readings:

Notes:
1) Joni Mitchell, "Woodstock," from Ladies of the Canyon, 1970.

Sunday, January 24, 2021

Overturning the Ninevites: Sermon for the Third Sunday after Epiphany



Once upon a time, long ago, the word of Yahweh came and whispered in a sleeping prophet’s ear. “Get up, Jonah, and go north to your enemy, to their great city Nineveh, and call them to repent, for I see their evil ways.”

The words shook the prophet awake—and he fled from God’s word as far as he could in the other direction. Go to the enemy’s great city? Never! So he went down to the port city of Joppa and booked passage on a boat heading toward the eastern limits of the sea.

Jonah went below-decks, lay down, and went to sleep as the ship set sail for deep waters, because sailing was not a favorite thing for Hebrews to do, since the sea symbolized the home of chaos, tempests, undercurrents, and death. Jonah figured he could just wake up when it was all over, and they were on dry land again.

But God was not about to be thwarted. So no sooner had the ship reached deep water but a mighty storm brewed up at God’s command. And the ship started to lie heavy in the waves that swamped over the side. In desperation, the sailors and even the merchants who were passengers started throwing everything overboard that they could, even cargo they hoped to sell; each praying to any small-g god they could think of that might help: storm gods, sea gods, wind gods. Nothing worked.


So, the captain started counting heads and noticed that that wild-haired holy man was missing. As the ship bucked and rolled under his feet, he went into the hold and found Jonah back in a corner, sleeping like a rock despite the turmoil. The captain shook Jonah awake. “Are you drunk? Get up! Pray to your god, whoever he is, that we can be saved, because this ship is coming apart!” The captain’s words made Jonah uneasy, even somewhat guilty. Jonah had a feeling he knew what was going on.

Once Jonah got on deck, he saw that the others were terrified. Nothing was working, and when nothing works, people often fall back on superstition and magic to try to help. So they decided to draw straws to see who was responsible for this terrible storm. Even before Jonah took his turn he knew what he would see when he chose.

Sure enough, when everyone opened their fists, Jonah’s fingers clutched the short straw, and his ship-mates turned on him with faces contorted by fear: “What did you DO to bring this on all of us?” And he told them he had run away rather than obey God’s command. His words turned their hearts to stone. “What can we do?” the other men cried. And the wind howled louder, and the boat sank even lower, and one of the masts broke off with a loud crack and swept over their heads.

Jonah next words astonished them. “Toss me over the side,” Jonah said, resignedly. Now, some considered for a moment—they knew gods who demanded human sacrifice. But most of them were afraid to curse themselves further by putting his blood on their hands. So they hesitated—and a huge wave nearly knocked the boat over. As soon as it righted itself, they moved with one accord, and with a prayer for forgiveness to the prophet’s God, they plopped Jonah over the side.

The sea instantly stilled, and the remaining sail filled with wind, and the boat darted away. The last sight the sailors saw was an enormous fish, big as a mountain, its mouth swallowing Jonah whole, and then the green flash of a tail as it swooped under the waves. The sailors shivered, touched their amulets, and immediately added Yahweh’s name to their prayer lists.

For three nights and three days, Jonah sat stewing—literally stewing-- in the bouillabaisse of half-digested seafood platters and slime and gastric juices in the belly of that fish. It was dark, cold, smelly, and painful. Jonah was stubborn—three days and nights worth of stubborn—but, eventually, he gave up.

He finally prayed a lament psalm to God, admitting his guilt, as the cold and stench of that fish’s innards pickled his very soul. He threw himself on the mercy of Yahweh, and swore a grudging vow of obedience. And—BAM. Immediately the fish tacked sharply and rose to the surface of the waves, spitting him out onto dry land at God’s silent command.

The coating of slime and fish barf Jonah wore as he rested on the sand did nothing to dim the sound of the voice of God speaking to him again. “Get up, and go north to your enemy, to their great city Nineveh, and call them to repent, for I see their evil ways.” And without a word, Jonah pushed himself up and stalked off, stiff-legged, to Nineveh. A deal’s a deal.

He arrived days later, covered in crusty dried slime—he wouldn’t give Yahweh or Nineveh the satisfaction of a fresh-smelling prophet. And what a contrast he made: the city itself was dazzling, one of the biggest in the world, so big it took three days to walk across, they say. It was the center of the Assyrian Empire, which owned --and oppressed-- just about everything at one time or another. Including Israel. So Jonah decided he would do as he was told—but he wasn’t going to get spiffed up for the occasion.

So into the city he marched. Looking and smelling like a human garbage dump, he thundered out his eight-word sermon in the streets as the people skidded to a stop at the sight (and probably smell) of him and gaped: “Forty days more, and Nineveh shall be overturned!” he thundered, and man, he couldn’t WAIT to see that happen.

There was a pause. Then bedlam broke out. People were wailing. Children were calling for their mamas. Dogs stopped chasing cats and dropped to a halt before them, and the cats didn’t even slash them. They heard the warning, and they BELIEVED. They tore their clothes. They declared a fast. They prayed to God—yes, even to this God of this pipsqueak people they had crushed to dust long ago.

Never has a prophet had such success with such a piece of prophecy and performance art. The king himself heard about it—second-hand, mind you—but even that second-hand prophecy scared the bejabbers out of him, and that king instantly sat down in the ash heap in rags and poured ashes over his head. He even ordered the animals of the kingdom to fast and wear sackcloth as a sign of mourning—and they DID. Chickens... in sackcloth—pigs... fasting. And God was appeased by their repentance, and had mercy, and turned aside from destroying them.

And, in the center of the pandemonium, there stood Jonah. Here he was, the most successful prophet ever—he’d just set a world record for prophecy that would have made Moses and Elijah WEEP tears of jealousy.

Was Jonah happy? NO HE WAS NOT. He looked around, felt the cool breeze of forgiveness and reconciliation blow through those pagan, enemy streets, and-- he SEETHED. He KNEW IT. He knew God, being God, would have mercy on these jerks—and he wanted to see some smiting instead. He wanted to see the place wiped from the map! Whose God was God, anyway? The Ninevites had made his people’s lives miserable for generations. And now they got off, Scot-free? How were the folks back home going to treat him now that he had saved their enemies???

“Oh my GOD, God!!!” he muttered furiously. “Of COURSE you are a God of mercy, slow to anger, abounding in kindness, and ready to forgive! But this is too much! I’d rather be dead than live to see this! Kill me now!”

And in a silky, what to Jonah was a frustratingly calm voice, Yahweh replied, “You good and angry, Jonah?” And Jonah actually felt something snap in his head.

Grinding his teeth in impotent rage, Jonah stalked off again on his stiff legs, until he could get outside the city walls. He built himself a shelter, and sat there glaring at the city to see what would happen. Maybe they’d screw up and return to evil—seemed likely, with their track record.

But nope. That repentance seemed real. So just like when he was in that fish’s belly, Jonah stewed, while the sun beat down and he squinted toward Nineveh’s shiny, palatial walls with revulsion. And God caused a beautiful thick vine to grow up and it lent its shade to shield his head, but Jonah was having none of it. "Nice try, God,” he thought, but part of him had to admit that that shade sure was nice.


The next day, God sent a worm, who ate that plant straight across the stem like a buzzsaw. And just as Jonah was coming to grips with that, a red-hot wind blew out of the desert, hotter than an oven, and Jonah keeled right over in a faint. When he came to, he grabbed the sticky hair on both sides of his head and yanked handfuls out in fury like a deranged Elmer Fudd. “And now the vine? REALLY?? I’d rather be dead than live to see this! Kill me now!” Jonah shrieked at God.

And again came what sounded to Jonah like a silky, frustratingly calm voice from God, leaning in over his shoulder like the butler on Downton Abbey, murmuring, “You good and angry about that vine, Jonah?”

“You bet I am, God!” Jonah snarled. “Angry enough to die.”

“Why are you angry, Jonah?” God asked, as smooth as butter, reasonably, and everyone knows the most infuriating thing when you’re furious is to be met with someone reasonable. “You didn’t do anything for that vine—I put it there out of mercy. It was here for a day and gone in a day. You should be glad it was there at all. But even when it’s gone, what’s it to you?”

“You promised Nineveh would be overturned, God!” shouted Jonah. “And now they’re better than ever!”

Jonah thought he heard a small chuckle. “Why, they ARE overturned, Jonah,” replied God. “They overturned their hearts, and they overturned their evil ways. You did it!”

Jonah stared up at the sky with his mouth hanging open. “Really, God? That’s your loophole?? A play on words? A PUN??? JEEZ! This is why I tried to run away in the first place!” And Jonah was speechless, and a little ashamed, because he was lying. He certainly didn’t know God’s plan at the start, and now he felt like a total fool, and traitor, too, helping the enemies of his own people like that.

God’s voice got softer. “You yourself said it, my son. I AM God, slow to anger, abounding in mercy—unlike you, that’s for sure. And that’s lucky for you, too, dear Jonah. And I will have mercy on whom I choose—you don’t get to decide, especially since right now YOU seem to be lacking in mercy, compassion, and loving-kindness.”

The voice grew more tender. “I am God. You are my messenger, and you know I love you and have mercy on you. And right now I also have mercy on Nineveh, and its 120,000 people and thousands of animals.”

And there the story ends.

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Now, there are a quite a few interesting lessons here. When I first told you this story three years ago, this parish was in a state of hurt and bewilderment, torn between sorrow and anger. And I decided to tell you this story again because right now our country is in the same place. The lessons of this story need repeating again, I think.

I think about what it has to say to us about how to move forward in our national life and in any relationship which has experienced a huge rupture—one that has hopefully awakened us to the very real danger the politics of division plays in hurting and wounding very real people. There’s a lot of talk about unity right now—but not so much talk about accountability and repentance. Jonah’s story IS about repentance before God. What enrages Jonah is that Nineveh’s repentance before God leaves unsettled the score between Nineveh and Israel—Nineveh as oppressor, Israel as victim—unsettled. Jonah knows that Israel has suffered at Nineveh’s hands—and he wants vengeance.

That’s where we are stuck, right now too. Asking forgiveness of God, and asking forgiveness and reconciling with those whom you have hurt in our human relationships as part of that same sinfulness and selfishness are two very necessary parts of the same thing.

Jonah helpfully models for us exactly what God is NOT: vindictive, retributive, discriminatory—much of what we have seen on display for far too long in our country. We’ve seen the Ninevites take us over—and it’s time for us to wake from the nightmare and say no. No to hurting others as long as we justify it by our own rights without talking about responsibility. No to violence. No to hatred.

Sometimes our own hard-heartedness and stubbornness puts us in the belly of the whale. Even when Jonah grudgingly did as he was asked, he still tried to impose a theology of vengeance and retribution upon God. Even though he could quote scripture identifying God’s essential characteristics as being gracious, merciful, slow to anger, and eager to forgive, in practice he thought that only applied to his own people. A theology of vengeance and division that has ruled our life as a nation for FAR too long.

But God IS the God of second chances—especially for those that have been misled by the lies of the powerful who take pride in their robbery, to quote our psalm. Instead, Jesus becomes incarnate to show us that we are capable of following the path of God in our everyday lives: through Christ, God invites us to seek justice, reconciliation and healing, and not twist those calls in the name of the power of violence and oppression. The Ninevites are now CALLED to embrace God’s values. They cannot continue sowing violence and oppression as they did before.


And God calls all of us too- to engage in not just asking forgiveness but in evaluating where we have supported policies that have hurt very real people because it was easy or profitable, or because we were told that they deserved to suffer. If the Ninevites repentance is real, they can no longer live by oppression, division, hatred, and war.

The lessons we learn from Jonah carry over into the message we hear from Jesus, who also preaches mercy, grace, and healing in a world devoid of it far too often—much like our own world today. A world in which we have to take responsibility for change that brings hope and compassion to all. A world in which far too many people suffer want, neglect, and poverty as we will be reminded in our prayers of the people in a few moments. We will be called to consider working to heal the economic divisions that cause very real suffering in our country and around the world.

I hear a call in this story a reminder that the work of God’s forgiveness doesn’t let us off the hook. To receive a gift is one thing. To be worthy of the gift is another. In order for us as a nation to really embrace the way to reconciliation, which is deeper and more meaningful than mere unity we have to be willing to assume responsibility for the harm done when our opponents are instead recast by our leaders as our enemies and beneath any need for respect. Such dehumanization violates our call as children of God to honor the dignity and worth of EVERY person.

Made in the image of God, we too are called to be both individuals and communities of mercy, slow to anger, abounding in kindness, and ready to forgive. We are also called to account and to restore where we have damaged others in our blindness or selfishness. In terms of our current crisis, both economic, pandemic and political, we are reminded that we are only as strong as our bonds that hold us together.

We are only as strong as our bonds that hold us together.

May we begin this work—today. Honestly. Humbly. Remembering we all owe our lives to God—and to each other, regardless of differences.

Amen.



Preached at the 10:30 am online service from St. Martin's  Episcopal Church, Ellisville, MO, January 24, 2021.


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