Thursday, April 28, 2022

Between Two Fires: Speaking to the Soul for April 28, 2022



John 21:1-19

 

Simon Peter’s head was swirling with thoughts, and his heart was churning with emotion. He needed to get away. So he decided to say he was going fishing overnight—and of course, half of the other apostles immediately jumped in, demanding to come too.

It was torture. All he wanted was to be left alone with his failures—but instead he spent all night listening to the chatter of his fellow-apostles, who didn’t seem to notice he wasn’t his usual, impulsive self.

All he could think of was the red glow of that coal fire, and the reflection of that glow in the faces all around him as he had denied again and again that he knew Jesus. And then the rooster had crowed, and his heart had sunk like a stone, and he had run away.

He would never forgive himself.

Jesus had made a terrible mistake in claiming that he, Simon Peter, could be the head of the group, the leader of the apostles. He couldn’t continue Jesus’s work in proclaiming the good news of Jesus! He couldn’t even stand up for what he believed standing on a side street with a bunch of strangers.

Dawn came and, on top of having to endure PEOPLE all night long in that little boat, they hadn’t caught a damn’ thing. It was hot, and it was still, and the beer had run out a long time ago. It was the perfect combination of conditions for someone determined to be miserable, and it almost gave Simon Peter a grim, black sense of satisfaction.

Then, just about dawn, some guy on the shore had started calling out advice—and if there’s one thing a fisherman can’t stand, it’s some yahoo giving advice from the comfort of shore. “Cast your net on the right side,” the stranger had called. Oh, sure, THAT must be the problem.

But they hauled the nets up, sorted and rolled them, and then cast them on the right side of the boat. For a moment, the nets just sunk out of view into the gloom. And then, when they started to haul it up, the resistance caused the boat suddenly to tilt to one side. As soon as they had shifted their weight to right it, John had yelled out that the guy on shore was Jesus. He sounded so sure that Simon Peter squinted hard at the stranger—and he recognized the slope of those shoulders.

Simon Peter’s heart leapt to his throat, and he did the only thing he could think of—he made himself presentable and jumped over the side. It seemed like it took just seconds to reach the shore. Dripping, he took the hand Jesus offered as he flopped through the rushes, but then dropped it like it was hot. He saw that coal fire, burning merrily, and remembered.

He had no right to expect anything other than condemnation. He had denied his Savior three times to save his own neck, and he deserved nothing more than to be cast out.

Instead, he got breakfast. Breakfast, and forgiveness. There between the white-hot memory of two fires, and three denials.

It is in the ordinary that the true miracle of Christ’s love plays itself out for us in each moment, whether of joy or sorrow. We too often live between the fires of our past failures and our current temptation to take the easy way still. Yet we have all been called, like Peter, to proclaim our discipleship—and all of us have had times where we have failed. But not a word of blame is spoken by Jesus to Simon Peter, or to us. Just a simple question: Do you love me? And then he feeds us, body and soul.

Each time Jesus asks, one of Simon Peter’s three denials is blotted out. “Do you love me?” Jesus asks again and again, even though he already knows the answer.

“Do you love me?” Jesus asks us right now. Yes? Then let down your nets, and gather all you can. Draw the world to Jesus in your words and actions, and in your love most of all. Don’t worry about being overwhelmed, or about the net breaking. The net of faith is strong enough to hold everyone. Don’t worry about your own failures and shortcomings and doubts—know that you are beloved of Jesus, beloved, and worthy, and called.

“Do you love me?” Jesus asks us right now. Yes? Then let down your nets, and gather all you can. Draw the world to Jesus in your words and actions, and in your love most of all. Don’t worry about being overwhelmed, or about the net breaking. The net of faith is strong enough to hold everyone. Don’t worry about your own failures and shortcomings and doubts—know that you are beloved of Jesus, beloved, and worthy, and called.



This was first published at Episcopal Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 28, 2022.

Between Two Fires: Speaking to the Soul, April 28, 2022



Simon Peter’s head was swirling with thoughts, and his heart was churning with emotion. He needed to get away, so he decided to say he was going fishing overnight. Of course, half of the other apostles immediately demanded to join him.

It was torture. All Peter wanted was to be left alone with his failures. Instead he spent all night listening to the chatter of his fellow-apostles, who didn’t seem to notice he wasn’t his usual, impulsive self.

All he could think of was the red glow of that coal fire, and the reflection of that glow in the faces all around him as he had denied again and again that he knew Jesus. And then the rooster had crowed, and his heart had sunk like a stone, and he had run away.

He would never forgive himself.

Jesus had made a terrible mistake in claiming that he, Simon Peter, could be the head of the group, the leader of the apostles. He couldn’t continue Jesus’s work in proclaiming the good news of Jesus! He couldn’t even stand up for what he believed standing on a side street with a bunch of strangers.

Dawn came and, on top of having to endure PEOPLE all night long in that little boat, they hadn’t caught a damn’ thing. It was hot, and it was still, and the beer had run out a long time ago. It was the perfect combination of conditions for someone determined to be miserable, and it almost gave Simon Peter a grim, black sense of satisfaction.

Then, just about dawn, some guy on the shore had started calling out advice—and if there’s one thing a fisherman can’t stand, it’s some yahoo giving advice from the comfort of shore. “Cast your net on the right side,” the stranger had called. Oh, sure, THAT must be the problem.

But they hauled the nets up, sorted and rolled them, and then cast them on the right side of the boat. For a moment, the nets just sunk out of view into the gloom. And then, when they started to haul it up, the resistance caused the boat suddenly to tilt to one side. As soon as they had shifted their weight to right it, John had yelled out that the guy on shore was Jesus. He sounded so sure that Simon Peter squinted hard at the stranger—and he recognized the slope of those shoulders.

Simon Peter’s heart leapt to his throat, and he did the only thing he could think of—he made himself presentable and jumped over the side. It seemed like it took just seconds to reach the shore. Dripping, he took the hand Jesus offered as he flopped through the rushes, but then dropped it like it was hot. He saw that coal fire burning merrily, and remembered.

He had no right to expect anything other than condemnation. He had denied his Savior three times to save his own neck, and he deserved nothing more than to be cast out.

Instead, he got breakfast. Breakfast, and forgiveness. There between the white-hot memory of two fires, and three denials.

It is in the ordinary that the true miracle of Christ’s love plays itself out for us in each moment, whether of joy or sorrow. We too often live between the fires of our past failures and our current temptation to take the easy way still. Yet we have all been called, like Peter, to proclaim our discipleship—and all of us have had times where we have failed. But not a word of blame is spoken by Jesus to Simon Peter, or to us. Just a simple question: Do you love me? And then he feeds us, body and soul.

Each time Jesus asks, one of Simon Peter’s three denials is blotted out. “Do you love me?” Jesus asks, and he already knows the answer.

“Do you love me?” Jesus asks us right now. Then let down your nets, and gather all you can. Draw the world to Jesus in your words and actions, and in your love most of all. Don’t worry about being overwhelmed, or about the net breaking. The net of faith is strong enough to hold everyone. Don’t worry about your own failures and shortcomings and doubts—know that you are beloved of Jesus, beloved, and worthy, and called.


This was first published at Episcopal Journal and Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 28, 2022.

Sunday, April 24, 2022

Wounds, Doubts, and Resurrection: Sermon for Easter 2C



Welcome to our yearly visit with Honest Thomas—the disciple who asks what everyone else is wondering.

You might notice that I do not refer to him as “Doubting Thomas.”

That’s because it is pretty unfair to stick that label on him and not on the other ten remaining apostles. They ALL doubted. And who can blame them? That’s a completely human reaction to have.

Throughout the centuries there has been a hatchet job done on the whole concept of “doubt.” I have heard church people refer to doubt as “the lack of faith.” If you have doubts, they piously intone, you have “lost your faith.”

Not so.

The opposite of faith is not doubt. Doubt demonstrates that you are engaging with the questions before you, seriously. The opposite of faith is disengagement—in not wrestling with the questions, and their impact on our lives, at all. The opposite of faith is not caring, giving up. The life of faith is an active life—it doesn’t take place between your ears, but under your ribs. Faith is not an intellectual proposition to be proved or disproved based on evidence, but a conversion of heart and spirit toward a life seeking after the holy, the good, and the compassionate.

Instead, what I am drawn to thinking about this year as we hear this gospel is the idea of Jesus’s wounds. Not in a creepy way. But as signs of Christ’s solidarity with us.

Too often, wounds and scars are seen as imperfections, something to hide or be ashamed of. They are sometimes used to identify you—and even sometimes make you simply a collection of your wounds and scars, as if that is all there is to any person.

Have you ever noticed that when the authorities are looking for a missing person, they include information about their noticeable scars? Our scars are like our fingerprints—each unique.

Harrison Ford’s got a famous scar on his chin from a car accident, and he gave Sean Bean a scar on his forehead when filming Patriot Games. Harry Potter has his famous lightning-bolt shaped scar on his forehead, and Professor Dumbledore claims to have a scar on his knee that is a perfect map of the London Underground. The evil prince who usurps the throne in The Lion King is actually named Scar. Our beautiful Earth even bears wounds and scars, many inflicted by human activity. As we celebrated Earth Day this last week, I hope that many of us thought of those wounds, and what we could do, each of us, to bring them to healing and recovery.

I thought of the painting by Caravaggio of Jesus inviting what the artist called an “incredulous” Thomas to actually touch those wounds (see the cover image above). Heck, Jesus doesn’t just invite—he takes Thomas’s wrist and drawn him toward his side. Jesus shows Thomas his scars to help prove it’s really him when Thomas, like the rest of the apostles, has a hard time believing that Jesus has been resurrected from the dead. Jesus’s wounds tell the story of love triumphing over death and evil and cruelty.

Our wounds and our scars also each tell a story. When I look at the scars on my body, I remember how I got each of them. There’s a long straight scar on my left leg where it meets my foot—I got that when I was 18, sitting cross-legged on the floor trying to open a hard plastic package with a new doorknob in it. I broke every rule about knife safety I had been taught and turned the blade toward me as I tried to cut open the clamshell packaging. I didn’t feel so good about it either—or the fact that my dad actually almost passed out when he saw the minimal amount of blood as I asked him to take me to the ER. That scar also memorializes the day I learned my dad was afraid of the sight of blood—one of his wounds I could not see.

Then there are scars that are invisible—internal, emotional scars. The ones we bear from heartbreak, or trauma, or abuse, or neglect—and the ones we frequently overlook in others in our rush to judge them. Those scars also tell a story of survival and resilience. Many of us have some new ones after the last few years.

And these internal scars, once we seek help and healing for them, once we accept that they are part of what makes us who we are but not the totality of who we are, are also an opportunity for us to develop empathy and choose a different path, so that we do not, in turn, inflict new scars like ours on others. Thanks to the love of Jesus in the tender hearts of others who have loved me and ministered to me, those kind of scars in my life I have eventually learned to treasure as precious reminders that I have choice, and agency, to break the cycles of pain and suffering that caused others to wound me and scar me. They remind me that I have survived, and that I am more than just my wounds and my scars. They remind me that there is always hope for healing.

Some people are ashamed of their wounds and scars. Our society puts too much emphasis on the idea of perfection being related to looking like you’ve never experienced the touch of pain or aging or just plain old living. That’s not healthy. But scars can also be noble. They are markers of endurance. We can also look at scars as signs of our survival and healing. They are signs of resilience.

As I preached last Sunday on Easter Day, we are being called to live a resurrected life. But even in that resurrected life, we too still bear the wounds and scars of our lives. Jesus’s scars are reminders to all of us that in undergoing death of a cross, Jesus takes the human experience of pain, suffering, and death into the very essence of the Triune God. God truly understands our pains and our traumas—including those we have undergone unjustly, just as Jesus did. Jesus’s scars are reminders of his full solidarity with us as human beings. That healing and resurrection are always possible in our lives, and a promise that our scars may mark us, but they don’t have to shape us.

Jesus showed his own scars to his friends after resurrection because our scars are the signs that we all bear of what has shaped us, for good or for ill. We are all known by our scars—and with what we do with them. Do we use them as excuses to hurt others and leave scars of our own as we pass by? Or do we see them as signs that we have persevered and have healed? After Jesus shows his scars as a sign that the cross did not have the last word with him, Jesus commissions his followers—including you and me, even those of us who have to cross our fingers behind our backs at a lot of the claims made in the Creed-- to go out and continue his work. And that includes acknowledging the wounds and scars and suffering around us, and acting in the name of love to ameliorate them.

That’s part of what “salvation” and “redemption” mean—two words that get thrown around in Christian circles without nearly enough examination. Being saved and been redeemed by Jesus is NOT about what happens after death. It is about what happens now: the grace we receive, the healing we receive, and our obligation and joy to participate in giving that to others.

Jesus, whose name means Salvation, is here, right now, showing us his scars rather than chastising any of us for our questions and our doubts. He shows us the power of resurrection is absolutely reconciling and transformational—that’s the whole point. We can’t wipe away our pasts. But we can move beyond our wounds and welcome the healing balm of God’s love to take us from being a wounded victim to a joyful victor. In showing us his wounds, he invites us as his followers to go out and offer healing and reconciliation to those they encounter by proclaiming God’s power in the lives of everyone.

I have often wondered if Jesus didn’t wince a bit when Thomas touched those wounds—another image to which we all can relate. Jesus demonstrates that this—wounds and all—is his body. This is my Body, broken for you….” we intone at the Eucharist, and often without considering the impact of that remembrance, that statement. Jesus opens himself to us, bodily and spiritually around this altar every time we gather here.

We who have known woundedness are called to recognize God’s love in the wounds of Jesus. Top recognize that, and work to heal the wounds we encounter in the world today, since we are commissioned to action as the Body of Christ.

We can still see the wounds of Jesus all around us, as Pope Francis once remarked, on the bodies of those around us.

“How can I find the wounds of Jesus today? I cannot see them as Thomas saw them. I find them in doing works of mercy, in giving to the body — to the body and to the soul, but I stress the body — of your injured brethren, for they are hungry, thirsty, naked, humiliated, slaves, in prison, in hospital. These are the wounds of Jesus in our day.

"We must touch the wounds of Jesus, caress them. We must heal the wounds of Jesus with tenderness. We must literally kiss the wounds of Jesus…What Jesus asks us to do with our works of mercy is what Thomas asked: to enter his wounds.”


What does all of this mean for us, and our own struggles with faith, and our doubts? Thomas was simply trying to understand the meaning of those events of the last three days—remember that this story takes place on the evening of Easter Day and then seven days later. It’s all still fresh.

I wonder if that was indeed why Thomas needed to see those wounds—wounds that shocked and appalled Thomas even as they confirmed it was indeed his beloved teacher and not a ghost standing before him.

Just like Thomas, 2000 years later we wonder: What did it all mean? How could Jesus die on a cross, and why? What did that death mean—and certainly what did resurrection mean for Jesus’s closest friends and followers? Jesus is reappearing before his friends to remind them that they now carry on his healing, reconciling mission.

We are just like Thomas. But if we ask to see those wounds in the world, we, as the Body of Christ, also commit ourselves to working to bring healing, restoration, and justice to the places where those wounds exist—even if they are hard to see.

Jesus’s wounds are the signs of the power of God, not God’s weakness. They are the signs that Jesus has broken open the ways of death and destruction that governed the world. Jesus’s wounds remind us that our own wounds testify to the possibility and power of resurrection in our own lives through God’s steadfast lovingkindness, mercy, and grace. Jesus received those wounds for refusing to fight evil with evil, as he has been tempted to do from the time of his temptation in the wilderness by Satan at the beginning of his ministry, and as his followers had been tempted to do as the arresting authorities arrived to take Jesus into custody. Violence cannot overcome violence. Only love can. And love in action is the power of God in action-- and our own embodiment of Jesus as his Body, wounded and beautiful all at once.

Jesus invites us to bring our wounds and our doubts to him: they are honest signs of our paths to God, no matter how twisty or difficult. Jesus is our living breathing, wounded Savior who has overcome the worst humans and empires. Jesus invites us into living God’s dream for us and for all creation: a restored life, a resurrected life. Alleluia!


Preached at the 505 on April 23, and at the 8:00 and 10:30 am Eucharists at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville, MO.


Readings:


Citations:
Pope Francis, “Touching the Wounds of Jesus,” Morning Meditation in the Chapel of the Dominus Sanctae Marthae,  July 3, 2013. 

Sunday, April 17, 2022

Looking for the Living: Sermon for Easter Sunday, the Day of Resurrection, Year C



We all love to look for things. Think of the games that involve finding things from our childhood onward. Peek-a-boo. Hide and Seek. Kick the Can, for the older set. The Hidden Pictures puzzles in Highlights magazine that you read in the dentist’s office to distract yourself from the dread of having to visit the dentist. Word search puzzles. Where’s Waldo, or “Where in the USA is Carmen Sandiego?”, for all those 90s kids. Clue—the game and the movie. The puzzle where you have to find five differences between two seemingly identical pictures in the newspaper. In the Harry Potter universe, the player who can immediately win 150 points and end the game in the Wizard version of polo and soccer known as Quidditch is the player called the Seeker.

We all love to look for things—unless it’s our keys when we need to leave, or our glasses, at any time. Like these three poor reading glasses, looking for a home these last few weeks after they had been left here during Lent.

Lent is a time of losing— especially losing the barriers that we put between our hearts and God’s love. Easter is a time for seeking and finding—finding that the kingdom of God has already begun, each time it wins over the hearts of one of us to live a resurrection life.

Sometimes finding begins simply with seeking you’ve never had or thought possible, such as the moment the shepherds run on an angel’s say-so to find the baby Jesus in a manger, to today, we look to see signs of God’s presence all around us.

Stories of losing and finding are abundant throughout Luke’s gospel. Sometimes, finding begins with loss. Mary and Joseph turn around from being halfway home after a festival to find the 12-year-old Jesus back in the Temple instead of on the road with them. Sheep and coins and prodigal sons and elder sons—all get lost, and joyfully are found.

It’s a fact, though, that looking for something starts with the hope of actually finding it. So seeking begins with hope.


The Galilean women who approached that tomb at early dawn probably had lost all hope. They approached that tomb with dread, preparing themselves for a job they faced with dread: rolling away the stone, and seeking and anointing the broken yest beloved body of their precious teacher and friend.

What they found was the stone already rolled away.

What they found was an empty tomb.

And just when they were trying to take that all in, they suddenly have two men in dazzling clothes standing beside them and put forth a question what must have seemed to be nonsense:

Why do you look for the living among the dead?

The women don’t have an answer. And they don’t get to see Jesus. Not yet. But notice something: they don’t see Jesus, and yet they BELIEVE he has been resurrected. Even without seeing him for themselves. Compare that with apostles’ reaction: they scoff and call the women’s news an “idle tale.” Ah, yes—two words that have been used to undermine women’s experiences for millennia. Even Peter, when he runs back and sees the empty tomb goes away “amazed.” Amazed, but certainly not believing it, or he would have gone back to the apostles and told them so rather than just going home and staying quiet about it.

Those women are the only ones of Jesus’s disciples who have stayed faithful throughout this long journey from their homes in Galilee to the horror of Golgotha. When everyone else deserted Jesus on the cross, they stayed and watched. They stayed and watched as Nicodemus took down the body and wrapped it and placed it in his own new tomb. And they left only to obey the commandment. The minute it was permissible, they came back to do one final act of love and ministry for their beloved Jesus.

What if we could see these women as the model for our own life of faith? After all, we proclaim what we have never seen—and many of us rightfully struggle mightily at times with that. They respond to the incredible news of Jesus’s resurrection with hope, and then belief. Hope that helps us to seek and find the abundant life and grace God offers to each of us every day.

The angels call those women—and us—to a life in which we have the hope to seek the living rather than the dead. To seek hope when around us there is despair. To seek kindness where we see contempt. To seek abundance when we look at God’s beautiful creation all around us instead of scarcity. To seek love in a world of human alienation and fear, and justice and mercy in a world of exploitation and oppression.

To seek Jesus within ourselves and in each other, where he has asked to be all along.

What if we also took to heart the question the angels ask the women? For many of us, our hearts have taken a battering. For some of us, our hearts feel as cold and as empty as that tomb itself. So many of us feel alienated after all the disruptions of the last several years.

The empty tomb those women find on that early Easter morning reminds us of a vitally important assurance: the silence of God does not mean the absence of God. It means God is inviting us to seek, and find, and shout Alleluia! God is calling us into conversation, and inviting us to be the face and hands and heart of Christ in the world. That is the meaning of Easter, and of the resurrection-shaped life Jesus has proclaimed to us all along. And in seizing hold of that promise, we have life, everlasting and abundant, right now.

Why look for the living among the dead? Easter calls us to believe that love has the final say.

Each year we hear of more and more people turning away from faith—and faith communities themselves. Yet I am convinced that one of the root causes of the crisis of faith in modern life begins with too many of us thinking the cross is the end of the story. Too many of us only see the empty tomb, and think that’s the end. We look for the living among the dead. We long for the past—a past that really might not have been as easy as we remember—rather than looking to this moment and beyond. We look for things or money or power or thrills or distractions to fill the emptiness within us. And yet none of those are things that will last. I wonder if we don’t look for the living among the dead things that don’t satisfy because we are afraid to hope?

Why look for the living among the dead?

God is inviting us to live a resurrected life right now, the life of not just faith but action that we promise in our baptismal vows. We do not worship a crucified Savior. We worship a living, resurrected Savior. Death does not have the final word. Love does. That is the promise of Easter—and the hope that makes our hearts a fitting habitation for the living, risen Savior.

Jesus stretches out his hand toward each one of us in love and calls us to embrace the land of the living—right now. He has left the tomb--- and is asking to take up residence in your heart, and my heart.

St. Therese of Lisieux, the Little Flower, experienced dazzling visions in her brief life. And she offers us some advice on how to live a resurrected life on this great Easter day. She calls us to attend to Christ’s leaving the tomb—and his request to live always within our hearts. The poet Scott Cairns has adapted her words into a beautiful poem entitled “Attend:”

Attend


Notice! Jesus stands just before you,
waiting in the tabernacle shaped
for you—shaped precisely for you!
He burns with great desire
to enter into your heart.

Ignore the yammering demon
telling you “not so!” Laugh in his pinched face
and turn without fear to receive
the Jesus of quiet calm and utmost love.

Partake of His Mysteries often,
often as you can, for in Them you find
your sole, entire remedy, assuming—
of course—you would be cured. Jesus has not
impressed this hunger in your heart for nothing.

This gentle Guest of our souls
knows our every ache and misery.
He enters, desiring to find a tent, a bower
prepared for His arrival within us,
and that is all, all He asks of us.



Christ is Risen! Risen, and resurrected, and calling each of us to embrace a life of wonder, a life of love, a life of hope. A resurrected life—the only one worth living. Alleluia!






Preached at the Great Vigil of Easter, and the 8:00 and 10:30 am services on April 16 and 17, 2022 at St. Martin's Episcopal Church in Ellisville, MO.


Reading:

Citation:
Scott Cairns, ed. Endless Life: Poems of the Mystics, pp. 137-138



Friday, April 15, 2022

Jesus, Remember Me: Sermon for Good Friday



What does it mean to remember? Do the ways in which we remember a person or event matter?

In our everyday, secular lives, collective memory is the psychological term for the way a group of people are formed by their memories and understanding of the past. Memory forms that common identity and outlook. What we remember, and what we forget, shapes our present actions and our future in critical ways. Shared remembering forms us and unites us as a body. So it’s not just “remembering.” It is also crucially “re-membering” that we do here, understanding the events of the past as also what shape the present and the future as one people untied as a body. Memory unifies, and enriches our understanding of who we are.

 

This is also vitally true of our religious lives. Remembrance is, of course, at the heart of all worship. It’s at the heart of all prayer. We even hear it in the prayers that we hear coming from the cross on this day. 

 

And it is hard for anyone of conscience to really engage in the process of remembering the events we DO re-member and commemorate on this day, especially when we are talking about things like the horrors and realities of crucifixion. The weight of memory of such terrible events can seem overwhelming.

 

But remember we must, if we are to understand ourselves and God’s abundant love for us. Yet what does it mean to remember?

 

I ask this question on a day that is a day of particular holy remembrance for both Christians and our Jewish kindred, as Passover begins tonight at sundown.

 

Both Good Friday and Passover are particularly steeped in remembrance. “Remember that you were a slave in the land of Egypt; therefore I am commanding you to this memorial,” our Jewish kindred will intone tonight, gathered around a table, remembering their deliverance from certain destruction and death. And we too, gathered here, remember our own deliverance, and our own debt of gratitude to Jesus for his devotion to the cause of love as the only thing that can overcome death.

 

Today, even as our Jewish kindred gather together to remember and re-member their deliverance from slavery and death, we remember today Jesus passing over from life to death on a cross. We remember his death this day—as devastating as it is—but also remembering that in both our remembrances and our Jewish kindred’s remembrances, death never has the final word.

 

Thus we consider again the power of remembrance.

 

On the cover of our Good Friday bulletin there is a special image. It is a painting by the great 20th century master Marc Chagall entitled “White Crucifixion.” It is meant to remind us of the Jewishness of Jesus, and of our solidarity with people of faith across the spectrum of belief. The Jewishness of Jesus is especially important to remember on this day, at a time when some people are seeking to limit our full understanding and remembrance of the past.

 

I ask that you look at that image for just a few moments with me right now, and see what it is attempting to call us to remember on this particular day especially.

 

Chagall was born into a devout Jewish family in what was then the Russian Empire. At that time, Russian Jews were limited by law in where they could live throughout Europe. This concentration enabled targeted outbreaks of anti-Semitic violence to take place throughout the centuries. 

 

Jews were targets in Christian Europe for nearly two millennia-- in part because of a misguided understanding of the Biblical texts used on Good Friday that appear to place the blood-guilt for Jesus’s death on the Jewish people. An idea that is a lie, one of the most devastating lies ever told: the lie that some people deserve their suffering, and that their suffering actually benefits others somehow and is therefore, necessary. That’s an easy position to take when you aren’t the one doing the suffering, isn’t it. That’s why tyranny throughout history is founded upon people placing restrictions on others that costs them nothing and that they would never tolerate on themselves.

 

By the time Chagall painted this painting in 1938 from where he lived in France, the Nazi party had been in control of Germany for six years, and in those six years, the Nazi scapegoating of the Jews had become brutally evident. In 1936, the Nazis opened the concentration camp of Sachsenhausen, and in 1937 they opened Buchenwald. The year 1938, the year of Kristallnacht and of this painting, made clear the perils of Jewish identity in Europe. And of course, the next seven years would see the attempted extermination of the Jewish people at the hands of Nazi-led genocide. And even though Hitler and his henchmen were no Christians, they co-opted German Christianity with their National Church, and they found a ready source of support from Christians who had been taught that the Jews had killed Jesus.

 

“White Crucifixion” is a critical turning point in Chagall’s career, and is a daring and profound political as well as artistic statement denouncing war and religio-racial hatred. Russian pogroms and the rising Nazi Holocaust are equivalized. Chagall equates the suffering and threat to the Jews with Jesus’s crucifixion. 

 

The Jewishness of Jesus is emphasized: instead of a loin cloth, a prayer shawl drapes his body; the crown of thorns is a headcloth; and the mourning angels usually depicted around Jesus are instead three biblical patriarchs and a matriarch. On both sides of the cross we see pogroms, with villages afire and literally turned upside down. On the left of the cross, a man flees holding a Torah scroll, while on the right a synagogue and its Torah ark are in ashes, and a Torah scroll set aflame. Refugees flee on foot and by boat. And in the center is Jesus, placed on the cross by those forces of power who ever seek to destroy anything they do not understand and cannot control or co-opt.

 

The wonderful Jewish New Testament scholar Dr. Amy-Jill Levine in her commentary on the Passion Narratives, makes this profound but simple statement: 


“Memory can provoke ethical responses.” 


Memory forms our decisions about how to live a morally grounded, reverent life, in other words—and of course that is the very point of a life of faith. Faith is about how to live.

 

Dr. Levine’s reminder places an obligation within us to go more deeply below the surface, on this day of all days, because remembrance on this day has often been fraught with peril and even bloodshed between Christians and Jews, based on a lack of understanding of our texts that describe Jesus’s passion and death. When we look at the entire story of Jesus’s betrayal and death, we see that he was executed by the Roman Empire, and the Roman Empire alone, on a trumped up charge of which he was, as even the centurion noted, innocent. 

 

Jesus’s real “crime” was the crime of telling the truth in a world in which lies predominated. Lies that came at the poor and marginalized like a sledgehammer, designed to keep them beaten down and helpless to resist. Lies like calling Rome’s terror tactics of mass crucifixions all necessary in the service of so-called “greater good,” in this case the misnamed “Pax Romana,” or the “Peace of Rome.”

 

Jesus was executed for daring to critique the injustices and cruelties of Empire and our tendency to give in or claim helplessness to those cruelties rather than resist them. Jesus died for proclaiming an upside-down kingdom in which God’s values were foundational, rather than human calculations of power, cruelty, and exploitation, for offering hope to those who were the least of the least within that Empire. Hope, like memory, can be a dangerous thing. People have died for less.

 

So back to memory: as we contemplate the passion narrative we just heard, in all its pathos and heartbreak, we also hear a plea to remember. Did you notice it?

 

It comes from the lips of the so-called “Repentant Thief,” the one who traditionally was executed on Jesus’s right hand side. Tradition even ascribes a name to him: “Dismas,” a name that comes from the Greek word for sunset. On the other side of Jesus, tradition has assigned the Unrepentant Thief the name “Gesta,” which comes for the word for complaint or moaning. And indeed, that thief on the left not only complains and moans to Jesus, he repeats Satan’s temptation of Jesus in his challenge and mockery of Jesus’s powerlessness at that moment when all three hang above the barren landscape. “Are you not the Messiah? Save yourself and us, then!” he moans.

 

But the Repentant Thief, hanging on the right hand of the crucified God, rebukes his companion. Rebukes him, and claims that both of them deserve their fates for their crimes. He then addresses Jesus straightforwardly.

 

‘Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.’

 

Jesus immediately assures this repentant sinner that that very day he will be with Jesus in Paradise. Despite his crimes. Despite how he had lived his life up until that point. Despite whether he had checked the right religious boxes or not. All the evils he had done-- those will be forgotten, wiped out by his acknowledgment and his repentance, and his faith even at the gates of hell on earth.

 

The good news of today that we are called to remember is how very much God loves us. How much God calls us to the honest work of remembrance and the brave work of repentance. Jesus shows us that love in his outstretched arms and his forgiveness.

 

That amazing and abundant grace is what we are called to remember this day—to remember, and open ourselves to despite the cost, so that that memory and its ethical command may transform our lives just as it did the life of that Repentant Thief, even at the last. But beyond the hope it offers us, we are today also called to remember the reality of humanity’s cruelty to humanity—to remember and stand against injustice, and persecution, and dehumanizing others or scoffing at their pain or perceived powerlessness, as they Unrepentant Thief did.

 

And so today, at the foot of the cross, may we join together in this prayer: Jesus, remember me, when you come into your kingdom. 


And may we ever dedicate ourselves to remembering and re-membering within our own lives the gift of forgivenenss and salvation offered to us by the love of God, made visible in the suffering Christ on the cross. 


May we re-member and denounce attempts to place the blame for that suffering anywhere but where it belongs: on our own wayward tendency, as both individuals and as communities, to close our eyes to the suffering of others. Including suffering we either cause directly, or that is done in our names, as we confess every time we gather. 


May we allow our remembrance to transform our relationship with God, each other, and with all of creation.

 

 

Amen.


Preached at noon and 7 pm on Good Friday, April 15, 2022, at St. Martin's Episcopal Church, Ellisville.


Readings:

Isaiah 52:13-53:12

Psalm 22

Hebrews 10:16-25

Luke 22:14-23:56


Note: The Passion Gospel read was adapted as a script and to address the appearance of anti-Judaism in the text. A copy of the script can be found here: https://poemspsalmsandprayers.blogspot.com/2022/04/script-passion-narrative-from-luke.html


Citations:

Amy-Jill Levine, Witness at the Cross: A Beginner's Guide to Holy Friday, pp. 37-49.

Henry L. Roedinger III and K. Andrew DeSoto, "The Power of Collective Memory," June 28, 2016, at Scientific American.


Images: "White Crucifixion," Marc Chagall, 1938, at the Art Institute of Chicago, photos mine.



For further reading on the appearance of Anti-Judaism in the passion narratives, please see Louis Weil, "Anti-Judaism Issues in the Scriptures for Holy Week," March 19, 2013, at Standing Commission on Liturgy and Music for the Episcopal Church.


Thursday, April 14, 2022

Beauty Broken Open: Speaking to the Soul for April 14, 2022



(Maundy Thursday, 2022)

When I was a child, our neighbors across the street, Veta and Myron, were a retired school principal and a retired school counselor. They were generous with their time—inviting us over to play on the swing set they still had up even though their son was long grown and gone. In a rarity for Tulsa, their home sat atop a cellar, and there our neighbor had a collection of rocks, semi-precious stones, and fossils. There were dozens of rose rocks, the State Rock of Oklahoma. He told me about the great inland sea that had once covered the central part of North America, and showed me rocks he had brought back from trips all over the continent. It didn’t take long until I was hooked, and I spent hours over there learning.

One day, he handed me a mud-colored gray-brown orb. It was perfectly round, and surprisingly light—about the size of a croquet ball. I thought it was pretty cool. Then he handed me a hammer. I was confused when he told me to put the rock on the work bench and hit it. But eventually I realized he was serious and did as I was told, not too hard. After a couple of whacks, the thing cracked, and he gave one more expert tap and the orb cracked open. Inside there was a glowing array of light lavender colored crystals. He told me it was a geode. He then let me take my treasure home. I wondered that something so drab and nondescript could be so beautiful when it was broken open.

Tonight, we observe Maundy Thursday—a day when we ourselves are invited to be broken open to the beauty and pathos of these next three holiest of days in the Christian calendar. Our service tonight begins what's known as the Triduum, the great three days leading up to Easter Sunday. In the early church, the Maundy Thursday service always began after sundown, just before Passover will begin for our beloved Jewish kindred after sundown tomorrow.

It is traditional for Christians to meet for a simple meal, engaging in foot washing as a sign of our servanthood, just as Jesus set an example for us, and then have Holy Communion one last time until the Great Vigil. And as we share together this Holy Communion, we are called to re-member that Jesus takes and blesses the bread before the meal itself has really started—he takes it and urges that it be broken and shared among those who sit with him at table for the meal. That bread cannot be shared unless it is broken. It cannot be used for eating the rest of the food. It must be broken in the same way that dawn must be broken, in the same way that geode must be broken in order to allow the beauty within to dazzle our eyes.

Tonight, we are reminded that Jesus gathers us, just as he did those apostles on that night long ago, and offers us the Peace of God, not for our own comfort only, but so that we can share and embody that Peace and Grace to those around us. Tonight we remember that Jesus showed us that the heart of love is service—humble, tender, and compassionate. Jesus shows us in word and action how to live the best life we can have. Tonight Jesus shows that only in breaking ourselves open can we be then filled with eternal life and love.

Tonight may we be willing to be broken open ourselves, broken open to the call of love and community and service to our neighbors and to creation, especially during these next beautiful three days.


This was first published at Episcopal Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 14, 2022.

Monday, April 11, 2022

Gethsemane



The grass never sleeps.
Or the rose.
Nor does the lily have a secret eye that shuts until morning.
Jesus said, wait with me. But the disciples slept.
The cricket has such splendid fringe on its feet,
and it sings, have you noticed, with its whole body,
and heaven knows if it even sleeps.
Jesus said, wait with me. And maybe the stars did, maybe
the wind wound itself into a silver tree, and didn’t move,
maybe
the lake far away, where once he walked as on a
blue pavement,
lay still and waited, wild awake.
Oh the dear bodies, slumped and eye-shut, that could not
keep that vigil, how they must have wept,
so utterly human, knowing this too
must be a part of the story.

-- Mary Oliver (1935-2019), Pulitzer Prize winning poet and recipient of the National Book Award


Thursday, April 7, 2022

Into Your Hands: Speaking to the Soul, April 7, 2022



One of the big blessings of the pandemic was being forced to worship online. Yes, I said it. It was something that I suspected we should be doing, but I could never justify the time, or find the energy, or come up with the money. Nor did we know where or how to start. Then along came COVID, and our bishop shut down worship the Thursday before Holy Week and barred us from the buildings, to keep us safe at home.

And so, using an iPhone 9 with a cracked screen, we began. And one of the first services I thought we could offer during the weeknights was compline. Two nights a week, there was this lovely little ten minute service meant to comfort us in our anxiety and surreal sense of separation. It was a soothing and wonderful way for lay people to stay involved in worship, as they could easily lead it with minimal instruction. A small but wonderfully generous crew of volunteers and I took turns leading these simple prayers. And now two years later, we still host compline online, with new volunteers, and it’s still just as lovely.

Compline offers simplicity. Of the four psalms offered as options, one of them is Psalm 31, verses 1-5. These spare verses address God directly, and with great trust, as one prepares for sleep.

In you, O LORD, have I taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame;
deliver me in your righteousness.
Incline your ear to me;
make haste to deliver me.
Be my strong rock, a castle to keep me safe,
for you are my crag and my stronghold;
for the sake of your Name, lead me and guide me.
Take me out of the net that they have secretly set for me,
for you are my tower of strength.
Into your hands I commend my spirit,
for you have redeemed me,
O LORD, O God of truth.


I can imagine it has been a popular prayer before sleep for millennia—I think back to stories of previous pandemics like the bubonic plague, when people went to sleep praying that they would live through the night—that was how quickly illness could overtake one from that terrible disease. The powerful image of God as the crag and stronghold is solid and sure—found also in Psalms 18 and 71. Contrary to what I had always assumed, a crag is a rocky promontory, NOT a shelter. It’s the kind of place from which people who are afraid of heights should NOT stand. You are safe when standing on a crag, but you feel exposed. You are on solid ground, supported by a massive outcropping of rock. So perfect a metaphor for life in a time of pandemic—that even when you feel vulnerable, God is beneath you, upholding you.

We certain clung to all those promises during the worst of times, didn’t we? And now, as we turn toward Holy Week, I think of Luke’s passion narrative, and of Psalm 31. The last words Jesus breathes from the cross come from Psalm 31:5—“Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.”

How many times have I read those words and not remembered the next phrase that follows? Jesus, undergoing one of the most cruel tortures a mind can devise, is not merely announcing his death. He is also expressing his absolute trust in God.

“Into your hands I commend my spirit, for you have redeemed me, O LORD, O God of truth.”

Think on it: As Jesus gives his last breath on the cross in Luke’s gospel, he is still proclaiming his faith and absolute trust in God, even in the depths of his suffering and with his impending death. Jesus is insisting that God is faithful, just at a time when a lot of people would wonder why God has abandoned them. This is very different from the other gospels, and is certainly a source of inspiration for all those who suffer.

The last two years have left many of us feeling raw, exhausted, and exposed. The familiar has been stripped away, along with our certainty that our worship and our liturgies can just tick along from year to year and cycle to cycle. But perhaps at the same time we can give thanks for the clarity that comes from being placed upon the crag, vulnerable and exposed, but also alive to the reality of God’s tender support beneath us. To teach us that we actually do depend on God when we ourselves have been depleted, to feel that we have been tenderly protected and redeemed—rescued from our sins and faults by the grace and protection of our living God.

As we turn toward Palm/Passion Sunday and Holy Week, may we hear anew the promise of those words, whether we are going through a rough hour, or a rough evening, or whether we are seeing the coral glistening of dawn break through the gloom of a long night. Loving Creator, I commend my spirit to You, for You have and always will redeem me, O Lord, O God of truth.



This was first published at Episcopal Journal and Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 7, 2022.


Prayer for Easter Thursday, April 7, 2022



Psalm 8

Dawn parts the velvet curtain of night
as we rise from our beds to praise You,
O Creating God:
accept our prayers,
offered in gratitude and humility.
For what are we, that You have made us
just a shade below the angels?

Your fingerprints are revealed
in the sun and moon that soar overhead
even as You place our feet
firmly upon the Earth your hands have molded.
Birds of the air, fish of the sea
all praise you with their entire being:
how can we give you glory and honor?

Place a new song in our mouths and our hearts, O Lord:
let us sing our praises from the deeps of our souls.
Give us a joy in doing your will:
to act justly,
to love mercy,
and walk humbly with You in love, O God.

You have lifted us out of the pit we ourselves have dug;
You have delivered us to abide in your light.
Take us by the hand and lead us for joy;
may your healing radiance shine through us.

Knit us together in justice, reconciliation, and peace,
loving each other as ourselves.
Spirit of Peace,
spread the wings of your redemption and grace
over all who call upon You
our exalted Lord,
our Loving Shepherd,
as we pray.

Amen.



This was first published at Episcopal Journal and Cafe's Speaking to the Soul on April 7, 2022.

Sunday, April 3, 2022

Worship, and Love, Embodied: Sermon for Lent 5C



There’s a scene in the sixth Harry Potter movie where the teenaged students, now pursuing advanced electives, have their first potions class. Their new potions master, Professor Slughorn, has three potions brewing for the class as examples, but he doesn’t tell them what they are. When he asks his students for guesses, of course bookworm Hermione Granger knows the answer—she knows them all. She identifies one, a powerful love potion, by its smell, a smell which is different for every person based on what they find attractive. She notes that when she draws near the cauldron holding the love potion, she smells freshly mown grass, new parchment, and spearmint toothpaste (her parents are non-magical folk who are dentists).

What does love smell like to you?

When I was a kid, love smelled like pan-fried steak fingers and fried okra, my favorite meal. It smelled like Old Spice cologne and my dad’s coffee, which was stronger enough to dissolve silverware. It smelled like Cherry ICEEs and the Brahm’s chocolate chip ice cream, but NOT the abominations of circus peanuts or candy corn. When my kids were little, love smelled like a clean diaper and baby lotion and food that was still warm when I ate it. Now that I am older, love smells like a Thistle Farms lavender candle that I light when I pray, in honor of women survivors of the streets and the inspiring ministry of the Rev. Becca Stevens. It smells like incense and sun-warmed tomatoes from the garden and my beloved’s jacket draped over my shoulders.

What does love smell like to you? What does is feel like?

I ask this as our gospel today presents us with one of the most richly sensual depictions of someone caring for Jesus in all of scripture— through our reading we experience a scene of the tenderest of ministrations, redolent with exotic perfume, in a place filled with love and companionship. A place like home—at least the kind of home each of us deserves, a place where people are devoted to each other by bonds of kinship stronger than mere blood ties.

Each of the gospels records an occasion where Jesus is anointed with perfume by a woman—and yet each of the accounts is different. In Matthew and Mark, Jesus is in Bethany, which is only two miles outside of Jerusalem and on the southeastern slope of the Mount of Olives. In three of the gospels the woman is unnamed, but in Luke an added detail is that she is a known sinner. Luke also places this incident much earlier in Jesus’s ministry, in the house of a Pharisee near Capernaum.

Our version from John is different in several aspects: Jesus and his disciples are in Bethany, yes, but at the home of Lazarus and his sisters, just after Jesus has raised Lazarus from the dead. The raising of Lazarus is the seventh of the seven signs in that Gospel—and the one that makes the local authorities determined to kill Jesus. John’s account makes it clear that Jesus is among his friends—friends who are grateful beyond belief for his resurrection of Lazarus from the grave. Perhaps this is as close to having a “home”—and it is just outside of Jerusalem-- that Jesus had.

Our Lenten lectionary does a magnificent job here in terms of sequencing. Last week we were reminded of the extravagance of God’s love and grace in the parable of the Prodigal Son, and here again we have a tale of extravagance. Yet rather than being inwardly directed and selfish, as the prodigal son’s extravagance was, Mary engages in an extravagant act of love—one that is deeply tender and personal. She breaks open a jar of dramatically expensive ointment—one used as a perfume, as incense, as herbal medicine as a sedative—and also for burial preparation.

The drama of this gesture is in its sensory richness: the smell of the perfume fills the entire house, we are told, and that Mary kneels at Jesus’s feet and pours an abundance of the ointment over his feet, wiping away the excess with the hair she lets down, as her family, Jesus, and his disciples look on in a reverent-- or shocked-- silence.

Mary anoints Jesus out of a profound love- it is unlikely that she knew that Jesus’ death on the cross was imminent. Mary’s motive may be to anoint him as Messiah out of gratitude for giving back her brother, which means that she and her sister will not be left exposed and destitute. Her extravagance is shocking—and the fact that she let down her hair, which a woman of that era only did in the presence of her husband—is even more shocking. But this is also the beginning of the second part of John, and at the start of each section, Jesus is anointed, so this anointing shows that Jesus is embarking upon a new phase of his mission. Jesus is presented in John as always being resolute, and matter-of-factly explains that he will soon die.

One of the things I am struck by in contemplating this passage is the reminder to all of us that Jesus had a body—which of course we all know, and kind of take for granted. No, I mean Jesus had a body that was not merely a vehicle or a symbol of his solidarity with us important as that is. But to take seriously Jesus’s full humanity is to realize that Jesus had a body that could feel comfort and pleasure and tenderness as well as undergo fasting and torture and death. Mary seizes the opportunity in the moment to care tenderly for Jesus’s living body. Through her touch she worships Jesus, and offers him gratitude, love and tenderness. A love and tenderness he needs as much as the actual anointing, as we know from our perspective two thousand years later, as we see Jerusalem and Christ’s passion and death looming just two miles and six days away in Jerusalem.

As Jesus speaks of his coming death, I imagine Mary longing to hoard these sensations of the feel of him, as his potential loss looms over those gathered there. And even in our time, we can have photos, and videos, of those we love even after they are gone. But one of the most final losses is the loss of the touch of the ones we love when they have passed away from us. As we look back on this scene from John’s gospel, I think about how Mary must have been so grateful in the days and years that followed that she yielded to this impulse to serve and caress her friend, regardless of cost or scandal or criticism, especially once he was executed on a cross.

This is a fully embodied story. The senses of sight, smell, touch, and taste are all richly engaged. Maybe that’s why some find this scene uncomfortable. After all, we live in a time of great ambivalence about our own bodies. We judge people’s bodies on their height, their shape, whether we think they take adequate care of their bodies. We make snap—and deadly-- judgments about people based on what shade of brown their bodies are, and divide ourselves along color lines, hair types, and nose shape. Our society dominates and regulates the bodies of children and women. We mock the signs of aging bodies and even try to hide or reverse the signs of aging. And the way we depict Jesus gets caught up into all of that, as it is a source of contention to some people to depict Jesus in a way that hasn’t been filtered through two thousand years of northern European art.

These last years of pandemic have been hard on our bodies—at least for most of us. When we went into preventative shut-down, we were deprived of the ability to be with friends and loved ones. We were unable to physically gather and share in the embodied community of the church in the same way we always had—a way we probably took for granted until it was temporarily taken from us. And worse, a sizeable portion of people around us responded not by doing what can be done to prevent illness, but denied the obligation to care for each other if it meant curtailing their freedom or preferences in any way. If anything should have made us aware of how we actually ARE affected by those around us, you would think it would be a contagious, deadly disease. May we ourselves always be better than that.

There’s one discordant note in the entire scene—and that’s when Judas makes his criticism of the extravagance of Mary’s gesture, and we get that often misinterpreted remark about the poor. But we know that Judas had not real concern for the poor. And when Jesus calls us to remember that the poor are always with us, Jesus reminds us that caring for each other and caring for the poor are not an either/or proposition, for the poor are part of us as surely as Jesus’s anointed feet are part of his body. If the poor are always with us, it is because we have already failed to take seriously our obligation to them to see them as part of us rather than separate and different from us. As Brazilian archbishop Halder Camara remarked, “When I give food to the poor, they call me a saint. When I ask why they are poor, they call me a communist.” That kind of attitude towards other children of God is a true impoverishment of spirit—one that denies the unity of all people in heart, mind, and body.

Just as we do with the poor, too often we forget or ignore the reality of Jesus as a human being, who loved, laughed, wept, hungered, thirsted, despaired. We think him aloof to real human emotions, and real human relationships—and the scriptural witness, written for a specific time and place for specific audiences, does not help that. They didn’t need a Jesus who could break a leg or suffer heartbreak. They needed a Jesus who was more-than-human. And certainly, we do too.

BUT Jesus did have a mother he loved, and friends he cared for, and compassion for those who sought his help. He hungered and thirsted. He knew the power of a nap, as the incident in the boat during the storm reminds us. He had a need for solitude even as he engaged in ministry among multitudes, with all its demands.

In this story we are reminded of the importance of the senses, and of the body, as a sign and location of love and of worship. Luckily, we are Episcopalians, and we worship bodily every week—what the comedian Robin Williams famously termed as “pew aerobics.” Stand, kneel, sit; bow, genuflect, present raised hands to receive communion.

Touch is precious. And it is a very finite gift. We can only touch those who are here with us. As I related to you in my rector’s reflection this week. my dad’s touch is one of the things I miss most because there is no way of artificially preserving it. Touch requires vulnerability. At its most loving it expressed safety. Tenderness. Love.

This is a story of true communion. The use of the word “break,” in saying that Mary “breaks open” the jar of ointment and pours it lavishly over Jesus’s feet, reminds us of the extravagance with which Jesus offers himself to us in the Eucharist, where we break the bread, where we “break bread together” and share in the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus. We speak of being “the Body of Christ,” implying the bold witness of Christ’s visible, tangible presence we are called upon to make in the world.

Mary’s action is an action of love, and an act of worship. Both can be profoundly intimate as well as public. We are therefore reminded that worship itself is an embodied act. But we are also reminded that the greatest way we worship Jesus is to ourselves embody his love, his tenderness, his drive to heal and reconcile and call people together.

The words we say and the stories we tell as we worship urge us to that kind of committed, bodily-engaged life. And so, as we come to worship, whether physically in this space, or watching remotely via broadcast, may we take a moment and breathe, and become aware of the way all of our senses are engaged in worship. May we settle into our bodies as they sit, stand, and move, and be gentle with them and with those around us.

Our bodies are where we meet Jesus, and where Jesus stands in solidarity with us, no matter who we are or what we look like. Our bodies are where Jesus loves us—and where we love Jesus, God, and each other. And we ourselves are called to act as Christ’s physical body in the world each and every day—and the world sees us, and judges Jesus—based on how we embody Jesus’s message—or not.

May we take seriously the proclamation that we are one body, united in Christ. May we remind ourselves of how our bodies are the place we physically meet God and each other. Of the ways they are beautiful, and worthy of care. Of the way they enable us to worship. Of the shared existence we have with one another, and the mutual dependence we have with each other, of our obligations to each other out of the same love that Mary anointed Jesus with the care for each other, and the entire world, generously, physically, tenderly. That is our true worship.

Preached at the 505 Saturday and 10:30 Sunday Eucharists, April 2-3, at St. Martin's Church, Ellisville, MO.


Readings: